not much updates

sep is almost gone! this semester really pass quite fast, and everyone around me thinks so too. Mid term break is over too, and there are many upcoming tests as well. school is so busy and tiring, but at the same time, also good lah. Keep my mind occupied.

i think daryl's dad is a great great cook. He cooks really nice stuff... on saturday, he prepared a super yummy japanese meal for us. Got all the raw fish meat which tasted so fresh and sweet, and japanese noodles, sushi etcetc. Just like what you get to eat in a restuarant...!

a few days ago i went to this starlight movie at padang.. then i did a really xia suay thing. Hai!! So lose face loh. After the movie was over and as we were packing up, i was clearing the potato chips and other rubbish. Then i saw a guy holding a big black rubbish bag standing nearby and i walked towards him to throw the bag of rubbish in my hand. As i approached him, he seemed to be talking to other people and i was waiting for him to open the rubbish bag for me. I was abit irritated cos he was so slow, then when he finally opened the bag i threw my rubbish inside, he asked me, "you wanna throw ur rubbish?" I nodded my head and turned away. Then suddenly it dawned upon me that he wasnt a rubbish collector!! He was holding the bag he and his friends had. So it was like he was doing a favour for me to throw the rubbish away and i didn't even say thank you and walked away like he was the rubbish collector! Then i heard his frens said, "Put the bag there let others throw the rubbish lah.." arghhh... i didnt dare to turn back and faster zao... sian ahh... haha. he must be cursing away loh.

week 4 ends

Friday is our exercise day! tennis and badminton today, together with daryl, meiqing and steven. I'm sorry meiqing, if u see my face abit sian, i'm not sian abt u lah, of course i enjoy playing with u, no matter how beginner you are, cos i admit i'm not that good too. Its just that I feel sian if I dun get to move enough, cause when it comes to exercise, to mi its really sweat one... and when i dun, i feel lazy and upset loh. But it's not your fault, it's just my lousy attitude lah. And poor daryl has to take all those disgusting tantrums... i'm sorry!

There are many good food around daryl's neighbourhood... and i discovered that the duck/char siew noodle is very very nice! Whenever i'm hungry i will crave for the noodles. Yummy! And I finally learnt how to appreciate roasted chestnuts... Used to hate the smell of it, and now im loving it... And moon cake festival is finally here, again. I love mooncakes, especially if they are durian flavour, of course! durian is my love... mango is first runner-up.

Things are finally settling down. Guess my heart is more or less settled too. It was not easy taking this step... But since i've made that step, i should set my heart into it and don't waver anymore. Sometime it hurts when I look back, but I've got to learn to deal with it and treasure what i've now. To me, relationship is all about responsibility and commitment... once the honeymoon period is over, its the character of the person that you have to accept and love. I admit that i've been lousy at dealing with relationships, but I wan to grow up abit more and be better at it... And i'm really sorry to the one whom i've hurt in my process of growing up.

"Remember that the rope is happy now, and learning to be happier... and so the boy must do the same"

ahhH!!

damn it!! my printer is working so slowly!! im supposed to be going to school noW! arghhh cant stand it. i think it took 1 hour to print 28 pages. Gosh!!Lousy printer... wasting my time. =(

so many tutorials to do... cannot finish as usual. Miss my hsbc friends.. wanna meet up with them soon but when? nO time... and my friend's birthday coming soon, no money!! got to save some money liao.. keep spending and no money loH... sigh! Bought a new bag with meiqing... sam bag to bring to school.. ha, we look like twin sisters.

still waiting for the lousy printer... hurry uP!!!

school week 2 liao...

next week tutorials start, and alot of work are piling up already though its just the 2nd week. C++ lectures have been terrible so far. have to spend hours trying to understand lecture notes, and i have yet to try the tutorial. school kinda suck la.

today's meiqing's birthday... think by the time i finished typing i should say its yesterday already. Bought an oreo chocolate cake from prima deli for her, junyong steven and we girls all celebrated for her... then she told us about the peeping tom kena caught yesterday night at raffles hall. So scary yet i wish i was there to witness that incident cause she said alot alot of guys were running after him.. and alot of bad words and one of the guys even spit at him loh.

Been eating buffet and lots of nice food these days - my grandma's birthday, daryl's birthday and my mum's birthday also. And lots of cakes as well. Really gaining weight must try and control liao. Too much good food is not good for mi... stomach showing.. haha.

"Maybe my love will come back someday. Only heaven knows. And maybe our hearts will find a way. Only heaven knows. And all I can do is hope and pray... 'Cause heaven knows"

what's wrong with me...

I'm terribly confused with my own life, sometimes i feel that what i'm doing is right, sometimes everything feels so wrong, wondered what actually happened, why is my life like this? Well, to be specific.. its my love life... why can't i have a simple and blissful love life? Why do I have to go through all these? Sigh... Used to have a jian jian dan dan de ai... but ever since that break up, things get more and more complicated and sad. Since now that i have him back, why can't i be as happy as before? Why do i not feel the urge to be with him? Am i taking him for granted... or do i really don't feel as much as before? arghhh!!

"i don't blame u if u decide that im a bad girl. be happy, that's all i ask of you"

lucky star

once again my lucky stars are working! daryl got 5th for his bowling competition... 9 pin tap...9 strikes in a row, just 3 more to complete a perfect game. so wasted...

watched charlie and the choc factory, not veri nice lah... the island is nicer. But the choc inside the show is really yummy! haha...

" i never see you sad before, and when i see that you are sad, it really breaks my heart."

bowling or rolling the ball?

Finally get to bowl again, haha.. but i feel that im rolling the ball instead of bowling lor. scores are still around the same, never change lah.

School's starting tmr already. so so so fast.... the whole holiday has been spent at working and working... veri little time of really going out and have fun. Time really flies. So many things happened. people stepping in and out of my life. me getting emotionally drained sometimes. And physically not very well at this point of time too. Getting tired and school's starting liao... Not ready yet. not at all...

"i didn't mean to make u sad, why should i, when all i got from u was concern and great company, and most of all, love... "

sleepy

I've never slept for so long in my life! haha.. maybe i did la, when i was a baby. But it has been a long time since i slept for so many hours... slept from 2am to 11pm and then 1pm to 4pm... realli like pig lor. Wanted to go swimming cause i rebonding my hair tomr then cannot go swimming for a period of time after that already. AHhh losing so much of my tan after the cac camp... cant wait to get it back! Going to a chalet organised by my hsbc friends next weekend at sentosa!! cant wait!

my bro bought a new phone, same as zanlun's...k750i...so cool lor the cam damn zai can take so clear photos! my phone so cheap one.. haha.. abit jealous now but then nvm la i still love my phone.

die la.. onli left 2 weeks then school reoopens liao. This sem i only taking 5 modules, cause there is C++ im realli scared that i cannot cope lor. stupid declan better help me lor... declan is this pokey guy i know from my hsbc clique... he everytime pokes me and teases me, got girlfriend already still so playful and childish. haha... poh fang better do something abt it!!

"i really loved the rainbow we saw together... it was really beautiful... and its the fullest rainbow i've ever seen. thanks for being there for me, thanks for being with me"

shopping spreeee!!

finally get to shop all i want!! haha.. went out with melissa and meiqing today. Shop like crazy, all the three of us bought many many things at our shopping paradise... BUGIS! We had lots of fun trying on clothes, and getting 'mau dun' over whether to buy or not but in the end still bought everything that we wanted! so fun so fun.... i bought 4 skirts and 1 top lor. spent like one hundred over... but then i really nv get to buy anything for myself the whole hol, been too busy working~

bbQ at ecp with my colleagues was fun too. haha... at night my daddy sent me and 5 of my friends home! He just got his new lorry, then we all sat at the back... then there was this time my dad braked the lorry too fast all of us flew to the front and bang each other... its was very funny.

I finally quit my job liao. Now im jobless but very happy cause i can slack at home and do nothing for 2 weeks! yippeee.. been looking forward to this for very long already.

happy bday to ming!

yeah!! had a realli good time celebrating birthday for my dearest meimei... she just joined me in the 20s family yesterday! =) we had dinner at cafe cartel.. ordered seafood combo for 3 but i thought it was not very nice, would have rather eaten at fish and co.. their seafood platter is so much more worth it! Didnt get to try the other food, but i saw some people eating some really big serving piece of meat?? some ribs thing.... looks delicious though.. can try some other times. Then after that we went for ktv at suntec there... really missed ming's singing, really think that she can join the jue dui superstar already. haha...

today is the free movie day!! fantastic four is really really funny!! act its really entertaining, i liked the show! haha.. had lots of fun laughing with yanjun.. We had free pop corn too, but no one share with me... didnt wan to finish the whole thing myself.

Im extending my stay at work till next friday, cause there are many things to do in the office and the boss didnt want us to leave so early. but yanjun is leaving already cos she's gg hong kong for hol! such a lucky girl... i didnt even get to go malaysia... must find one weekend go malaysia shop and eat, at least.

I think im recovering quite fast from heart break. thanks to my lovely angel. I dunno whether its just for this period of time that im feeling better, or is it going to last for good. I cant predict wat's gg to happen in the future too. But all i know is im grateful for my angel's existence... =) thank you so much for coming into my life, at the right time...

Breathe Again

Have you wondered how it feels when its all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never know it where you're going when you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now i just close my eyes and say

I just wanna breath again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little cry a little live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little try a little more
I'll breathe again

Starting out is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck its a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Dont wanna live my life in vain

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

last 2nd week of work

Have been piaing OT since monday, worked a total of 11.5 hrs of OT so far already! But then really tiring and no life lor... more than 12 hrs in the office. Quite look forward to watching fantastic four with my colleagues. Kelly services is treating us next wednesday at PS after work... coolzz... oh ya.. and they gave all of us a notebook that has a big spongebob picture on the front page. haha... it was so cute, but it only reminded me of sad stuff.. so i giving it away....

Mood has been up and down. There are times that im happy and times when im not, but life continues, and im really glad that there is this person who really cared for me... Let me call the person my angel bah.. Never thought that my angel would give a damn to whatever i feel cos we have never been close before, or really been friends who talked alot b4... it was really a surprise to receive so much comfort, and im happy that there is this angel who is so promising to offer me lots of attention. When i asked him why he care so much for me, and he sent me a really sweet msg abt love and friendship.

one day love and friendship met. love asked friendship, " why do u exist when i already do?" friendship simply replied," to put a smile where you leave tears." :)

where does my life leads?

Returned from a camp with a black face. burnt face. sad face. lost face... i've lost him, and no matter how hard i tried to bring him back, i still lost him. maybe it wasnt meant to be... i know i have to let it go, i've to learn to live an independent life on my own. i promised myself, my mum and all my friends who love me to be a strong girl. i'll do it, i will... for their sake. Its really not easy, after being so dependent for almost a year, after spending almost everyday with someone who loves u so much. and now everything is gone... after all the promises that he made has gone into the drain, how m i supposed to carry on?

once he told me to share this nick with him.. it was a song from madagascar, and now... he is sharing a song with another girl.......

"Do away with the old state. A child is guided by wise parents. Suit yourself in your endeavours. Your livelihood is assured."

simple yet so admirable...

i was walking along bugis street, and an old couple was walking in front of me. They are very old, probably in their 70s already, and they were holding hands and swinging them like how young couples do. A feeling of admiration and jealousy came over me... I really admire them for being so loving after so many years. its simple, yet it is not (in another way). :)

dreading monday

sucks man... tomr is monday again, and the worst thing is that i've to be on my own tomr at work, cause yanjun is away for camp for this whole week. There are other frens there lah but then yanjun is like my companion during working time, sharing the same music as me and talking and laughing with me.

Had a rather good sunday today, watched "batman begins" with daryl... yest went swimming alone and actually swam 30laps! haha...didnt know how i achieved that, maybe i really felt bored and nothing to do so just kept swimming and swimming.

Abit sad to know that one of my friends from hsbc is quitting in like a weeks' time or two. Sigh, she has really been a great friend though the time that we know each other is very short. But i know she is a super nice girl. She was with me while i checked my results in the office that day, and it was really comforting to have her with me. And she even went to the temple the day before just to pray with me. How sweet right... think she is really a gift from the gods to me. Such a nice girl... and im going to miss seeing her after she leaves. Hopefully we will still keep in touch.

baddie mood

was in a total bad mood today... didnt feel like working or doing anything at all. felt almost dead sitting down there, and when it was finally time for lunch, it rained heavily... In the end me and yanjun had cup noodles at the office. Actually felt very touched, cause ningfeng kept asking us whether we wanted food from the hawker because they are taking a car out to da bao food... and we didnt want, but he kept asking and asking until we really rejected him until he bo bian. Such a nice person, most of the time, other ppl would just ask one or two times, and wouldnt care much abt what we eat... Actually a few guys there are quite sweet, such as our manager, lih pin.. he always buys little stuff for us, apples, pocky, vitagen... such a caring manager we've. :)

not really looking forward to camp... dont know why. Maybe cause im not really involved in the stations and i dont really understand why i'm going... sighz. This is the camp that i've been looking forward to joining since last year, cos i met my dear from there, and i really had a memorable time there. and in the end i've to feel this way. Because of work, couldnt attempt dry runs... felt super detatched from the ppl there. nothing to do for the camp. sian ahz....

a romantic song that i fell in love with...

it was originally sung by diana ross, and the american idols of season 4 sang it! :) here are the lyrics..

I wanna call the stars Down from the sky
I wanna live a day That never dies
I wanna change the world Only for you
All the impossible I wanna do
I wanna hold you close Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful Looking at you
In a world of lies You are the truth

And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero
I'll make you safe No matter where you are
And bring you Everything you ask for Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see Just what I was
Show you the loneliness And what it does
You walked into my life To stop my tears
Everything's easy now I have you here

And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero
I'll make you safe No matter where you are And bring you
Everything you ask for Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

eye for a guy

why why why!? why did howard lose to stupid wolfgang!? i've nothing to say, howard put in so much effort lor. sucks.... poor howard.

haha.. just felt very ji dong, need to relieve...

spongebob craze

Did quite alot of things this weekend... went to watch the phua chu kang musicAL, of course i didnt specially went to buy the ticket to watch. Haha... i personally don't really like pck one. but then after the show, i think i've better impression of him already. He can sing, quite well lah. The tickets were given to me by my mum, complimentary ones. Brought along daryl's brother with us to watch it. He quite enjoyed it lah. for me... it was ok only, but its nice to know how the musical was like. I think its quite a simple plot, but the music was not bad.. :)

Saw two pple wearing a spongebob squarepants t-shirt! wonder where they bought it from, cause mi and daryl want it! haha... its really very cute. Only managed to find those kids one from robinsons... havent seen it anywhere else. Hope that i'm able to find it soon.

i also went to watch the korean movie "my boyfriend is type B". Ha... its quite a funny show lah, not very romantic but overall its not too bad.

Finally got to ssee huiqian and carmel.. and the rest of the cac pple. i think im always the same quiet me, never really talked much. Or should i say, didn't talk at all to the whole group together. While daryl seems to have gotten along with the rest quite well... maybe cos of the dry runs for the camp. I didnt go for any because of work. Talking about work... they have been making ppl work lesser or half day these days. I really think that they have lousy planning skills, such that they have to treat their workers so badly in the end. make ppl go home early and earn less money when at first they didnt even allowed any leaves to be taken and told us to be prepared to work ot for the 3 mths. haiz.. thought that things have gotten better ever since i left hsbc last year.

summer by KENZO

yeah!! i finally got my perfume! its realli realli nice, kinda soapy powdery smell. fell in love with it when i bought the cleo mag a month ago where they gave a little bottle to sample, then went around searching for it, and the taka staff told me it will only be launched on the 3rd of june! And now i got it! :) so happy. daryl buy for me one, the 50ml one which cost 97 bucks! so expensive!! haha.. but he got it got me willingly.. hehe.. he was in a good mood because of his perfect results. i felt very happy for him too lah.