oh man!!! i finally know how to upload photos!! haha.. no lah.. i thought need to do some other stuff to upload one, but i saw this "add image" thing to click on just now! hahahha... so ulu leh!!! But at least im being honest with my ulu-ness. haha... anyway that's mi in bangkok!

wataday

Had a super long day at daryl's house on the 2nd day of new yr, they invited lots of friends and relatives over to celebrate... so in the morning i was there to help out a little. Lots of things happened, and i was a bit sian by some things. I wore my new gior jeans there n i dirtied it abit with the satay sauce... mi and daryl lost 30 bucks in blackjack... was actually winning in the afternoon, then our luck turned bleah at nite. And i wasn't at home the whole day until at night when i went home, i found my favouritest pineapple tarts reduce to only 1/4 left. That morning there was 3/4 left loh. I was super upset cause i only get that particular bottle of pineapple tarts once a year... and for a few yrs that bottle will definitely last me a month at least... Plus, I was so miserly with it.. that day daryl came i only gave him 4... ha.. My relatives lah.. they never even give mi poor brother any hong bao some more.

Don't feel like talking about the rest liao...

happy chinese new yr!

yeaH! bought my fav fav fav jeans from giordano at last. haha... my dad bought it for mi, cost $59!! i love it manzzz... so happy. This year i bought most of my new clothes from ebase.. bought all of them at 20% discount, then the following week they had a 40% storewide... arghhh...

sigh, i think i don't really like all the modules that i'm taking this sem, and i have 3 projects!! plus, i taking an arts gem, although many ppl found it easy, i feel abit sian abt it cos sometimes i dun really understand what's happening in lec, listen to caucasian lecturing is really quite a stressful thing for me. I wan to concentrate, but my brain switches off all the time. Still can't decide whether i should s/u it or not...

zhang shao han got new cd already... i have the songs in mi laptop liao but then i dunno whether i should buy the cd or not. I think i do want the original cd, just tt i cant bear to part with my 20 bucks for songs that i already have.

Since last year's august or so, my skin condition got very bad... and then it dragged all the way to exam period. Don't know why suddenly so kong bu. For the whole of nov and dec, i've been going for facial... think it has got much better, but then the problem is still there.. still quite terrible cos i really put in a lot of effort to make it better. iTs just not fair.. some ppl dun need to care so much yet their skin is almost perfect... =( jiu ming ah.

lastly, happy chinese new year to all!!

2006

happy new year! abit late but still its already 2006. School's already opening next week. Sadly, my ah gong passed away after 4 days of the new year, so now we are all busy with the funeral stuff. He had lung cancer, and has been surviving for 1 year like that, and finally the cancer cells took away his life. Sigh.... I wish the people around me will stop smoking but even at the funeral, most of my grandpa's sons smoke. Or should I say all...

My brother has a broken ligament on his knee, think he is going for an operation soon. Then he has to go thru pysiotheraphy i think, such that he can walk like normal again... I think he will never dare to ice skate again... i hope. Dangerous stuff when he has no talent or there is no proper coach..

2005 is coming to an end... it has really been a long year for me, especially in the middle of the year. After September time seems to fly very fast... This whole holiday i rotted so much that after i finally get to work 2 days in the clinic xuan is working at, I feel so drained... so tired. Waking up at 9 plus am has been my habit during the hols and the need to drag myself up at 6.30am in the morning is really a torture.. But for money.. hah... no problem la... spent so much money during the hols with little budget, now my bank is quite empty liao.

All the hard work put in for the last semester has finally been paid off, thank god for that and thank daryl for helping me so much.. A sotong couldn't have been able to make it alone. A motivation to work as hard next semester, jia you to all my friends!

Feeling lazier to move nowadays, going to swimming and running are like becoming a chore for me... oh no.... that's very bad. They are supposedly my hobbies... what a pig i've become :(

Sigh, i wanted to buy a pair of silver chain slippers that i liked so much from m)phosis... I first saw it in the bugis branch, and then the suntec one. Thinking that there is still lot of stocks available, I wanted to wait for a week or two until i get some money to buy and wear it for chinese new year. But then when i went to some of its other branches again, there seem to be no more... I asked the sales person to check for me whether there is still anymore in other outlets but there wasnt any left. how unfortunate... i could have own a pair if i hadn't hesitated to buy it. WHy??? :( But nvm lah, xuan bought me a nice pair of sandals from the same shop as christmas present too... how coincidental

bangkok trip

jus came back from bangkok yesterday! wow... it was a really great holiday, alot of shopping and visited many nice places... my favourite place is the safari world, its like 10 times better than singapore zoo.. watched a few performances there, all very nice :) and i get to feed a cub as well... the elephant show also very nice. the elephants are trained to play sports and also painting, veri cute. And the most exciting thing i did there was para sailing! yeah, i get to fly high in the air... damn shiok!! =) And i bought at least 14 t shirts from there cos they are veri cheap... one only cost ard 4 bucks. And their earrings are mostly one for 1 sing... hehe.. nice place for shopping!

holidays

exams are finally over... time to take a good rest, these few days i've been sleeping like a pig, can sleep from 11pm to 10am and still feel tired and sleepy. don't know why.. not many plans for this holiday, just a short one month break, going to bangkok for 5 days, and the rest of the hol is for mi to rot and recover from this crazy sem. hopefully this exam will help pull my cap up as well.

things to do this holiday
-improve tennis skills, i wan tennis racquet of my own
-fix puzzle... miss the 'take my own sweet time' times to fix puzzles
-go swimming...i've stopped swimming since last hoL!

westlife is back

finally! after so long, they finally have another album! i cannot stand the last album they had, cant appreciate all the songs, so in the end i didnt buy their previous cd. This time i dunno whether i should buy anot... still deciding... but the songs are nice!

SEP application is over... And i got a common pool place to Finland, Helsinki University of Technology! oh my god! cant believe that i actually have a chance to go!! Cause my cap isnt high enough to compete with others, luckily meiqing helped mi mail the sep in charge... and i got a place allocated to mI!! yipeee.... which means yr 2007 i wouldnt be in singapore to celebrate chinese new year and my birthday with my family... I just cant wait for this exciting 6 mths!! somemore i've got daryl and meiqing going with me =)

exams coming in a week's time, the lectures finally ended today. hai... so much to study, dun think i can even finish studying properly.

study hard....

subway day

today i only had one lecture in school, hence after that mi, daryl, meiqing and lishan decided to go holland v to eat subway!! hehe.... but....

we waited at the bus stop for nearly 20 mins before we had the chance to go up a bus cos the bus stop was so crowded. After we got up the bus, we didnt press the bell and alighted at arts forum there when the car was parked at raffle's hall. sigh... so we took about 30 minutes just to get to the car from science. by that time i was really sianz... but nvm... we got to holland v in the end! We ate our favourite subway, footlong cold cut trio!! it was damn nice lah. hehe... then after that we went to buy cakes for some fren's bday, in the end we were too tempted by nydc and sat down to eat mudpie! =) yum!

if i knew how, i will sure open a subway in nus loh... sure very good business! hehe... there is always this subway bus 95 coming into our school but there is no subway... why not replace munchie monkey with subway? haha.... or macs?

not much updates

sep is almost gone! this semester really pass quite fast, and everyone around me thinks so too. Mid term break is over too, and there are many upcoming tests as well. school is so busy and tiring, but at the same time, also good lah. Keep my mind occupied.

i think daryl's dad is a great great cook. He cooks really nice stuff... on saturday, he prepared a super yummy japanese meal for us. Got all the raw fish meat which tasted so fresh and sweet, and japanese noodles, sushi etcetc. Just like what you get to eat in a restuarant...!

a few days ago i went to this starlight movie at padang.. then i did a really xia suay thing. Hai!! So lose face loh. After the movie was over and as we were packing up, i was clearing the potato chips and other rubbish. Then i saw a guy holding a big black rubbish bag standing nearby and i walked towards him to throw the bag of rubbish in my hand. As i approached him, he seemed to be talking to other people and i was waiting for him to open the rubbish bag for me. I was abit irritated cos he was so slow, then when he finally opened the bag i threw my rubbish inside, he asked me, "you wanna throw ur rubbish?" I nodded my head and turned away. Then suddenly it dawned upon me that he wasnt a rubbish collector!! He was holding the bag he and his friends had. So it was like he was doing a favour for me to throw the rubbish away and i didn't even say thank you and walked away like he was the rubbish collector! Then i heard his frens said, "Put the bag there let others throw the rubbish lah.." arghhh... i didnt dare to turn back and faster zao... sian ahh... haha. he must be cursing away loh.

week 4 ends

Friday is our exercise day! tennis and badminton today, together with daryl, meiqing and steven. I'm sorry meiqing, if u see my face abit sian, i'm not sian abt u lah, of course i enjoy playing with u, no matter how beginner you are, cos i admit i'm not that good too. Its just that I feel sian if I dun get to move enough, cause when it comes to exercise, to mi its really sweat one... and when i dun, i feel lazy and upset loh. But it's not your fault, it's just my lousy attitude lah. And poor daryl has to take all those disgusting tantrums... i'm sorry!

There are many good food around daryl's neighbourhood... and i discovered that the duck/char siew noodle is very very nice! Whenever i'm hungry i will crave for the noodles. Yummy! And I finally learnt how to appreciate roasted chestnuts... Used to hate the smell of it, and now im loving it... And moon cake festival is finally here, again. I love mooncakes, especially if they are durian flavour, of course! durian is my love... mango is first runner-up.

Things are finally settling down. Guess my heart is more or less settled too. It was not easy taking this step... But since i've made that step, i should set my heart into it and don't waver anymore. Sometime it hurts when I look back, but I've got to learn to deal with it and treasure what i've now. To me, relationship is all about responsibility and commitment... once the honeymoon period is over, its the character of the person that you have to accept and love. I admit that i've been lousy at dealing with relationships, but I wan to grow up abit more and be better at it... And i'm really sorry to the one whom i've hurt in my process of growing up.

"Remember that the rope is happy now, and learning to be happier... and so the boy must do the same"

ahhH!!

damn it!! my printer is working so slowly!! im supposed to be going to school noW! arghhh cant stand it. i think it took 1 hour to print 28 pages. Gosh!!Lousy printer... wasting my time. =(

so many tutorials to do... cannot finish as usual. Miss my hsbc friends.. wanna meet up with them soon but when? nO time... and my friend's birthday coming soon, no money!! got to save some money liao.. keep spending and no money loH... sigh! Bought a new bag with meiqing... sam bag to bring to school.. ha, we look like twin sisters.

still waiting for the lousy printer... hurry uP!!!

school week 2 liao...

next week tutorials start, and alot of work are piling up already though its just the 2nd week. C++ lectures have been terrible so far. have to spend hours trying to understand lecture notes, and i have yet to try the tutorial. school kinda suck la.

today's meiqing's birthday... think by the time i finished typing i should say its yesterday already. Bought an oreo chocolate cake from prima deli for her, junyong steven and we girls all celebrated for her... then she told us about the peeping tom kena caught yesterday night at raffles hall. So scary yet i wish i was there to witness that incident cause she said alot alot of guys were running after him.. and alot of bad words and one of the guys even spit at him loh.

Been eating buffet and lots of nice food these days - my grandma's birthday, daryl's birthday and my mum's birthday also. And lots of cakes as well. Really gaining weight must try and control liao. Too much good food is not good for mi... stomach showing.. haha.

"Maybe my love will come back someday. Only heaven knows. And maybe our hearts will find a way. Only heaven knows. And all I can do is hope and pray... 'Cause heaven knows"

what's wrong with me...

I'm terribly confused with my own life, sometimes i feel that what i'm doing is right, sometimes everything feels so wrong, wondered what actually happened, why is my life like this? Well, to be specific.. its my love life... why can't i have a simple and blissful love life? Why do I have to go through all these? Sigh... Used to have a jian jian dan dan de ai... but ever since that break up, things get more and more complicated and sad. Since now that i have him back, why can't i be as happy as before? Why do i not feel the urge to be with him? Am i taking him for granted... or do i really don't feel as much as before? arghhh!!

"i don't blame u if u decide that im a bad girl. be happy, that's all i ask of you"

lucky star

once again my lucky stars are working! daryl got 5th for his bowling competition... 9 pin tap...9 strikes in a row, just 3 more to complete a perfect game. so wasted...

watched charlie and the choc factory, not veri nice lah... the island is nicer. But the choc inside the show is really yummy! haha...

" i never see you sad before, and when i see that you are sad, it really breaks my heart."

bowling or rolling the ball?

Finally get to bowl again, haha.. but i feel that im rolling the ball instead of bowling lor. scores are still around the same, never change lah.

School's starting tmr already. so so so fast.... the whole holiday has been spent at working and working... veri little time of really going out and have fun. Time really flies. So many things happened. people stepping in and out of my life. me getting emotionally drained sometimes. And physically not very well at this point of time too. Getting tired and school's starting liao... Not ready yet. not at all...

"i didn't mean to make u sad, why should i, when all i got from u was concern and great company, and most of all, love... "

sleepy

I've never slept for so long in my life! haha.. maybe i did la, when i was a baby. But it has been a long time since i slept for so many hours... slept from 2am to 11pm and then 1pm to 4pm... realli like pig lor. Wanted to go swimming cause i rebonding my hair tomr then cannot go swimming for a period of time after that already. AHhh losing so much of my tan after the cac camp... cant wait to get it back! Going to a chalet organised by my hsbc friends next weekend at sentosa!! cant wait!

my bro bought a new phone, same as zanlun's...k750i...so cool lor the cam damn zai can take so clear photos! my phone so cheap one.. haha.. abit jealous now but then nvm la i still love my phone.

die la.. onli left 2 weeks then school reoopens liao. This sem i only taking 5 modules, cause there is C++ im realli scared that i cannot cope lor. stupid declan better help me lor... declan is this pokey guy i know from my hsbc clique... he everytime pokes me and teases me, got girlfriend already still so playful and childish. haha... poh fang better do something abt it!!

"i really loved the rainbow we saw together... it was really beautiful... and its the fullest rainbow i've ever seen. thanks for being there for me, thanks for being with me"

shopping spreeee!!

finally get to shop all i want!! haha.. went out with melissa and meiqing today. Shop like crazy, all the three of us bought many many things at our shopping paradise... BUGIS! We had lots of fun trying on clothes, and getting 'mau dun' over whether to buy or not but in the end still bought everything that we wanted! so fun so fun.... i bought 4 skirts and 1 top lor. spent like one hundred over... but then i really nv get to buy anything for myself the whole hol, been too busy working~

bbQ at ecp with my colleagues was fun too. haha... at night my daddy sent me and 5 of my friends home! He just got his new lorry, then we all sat at the back... then there was this time my dad braked the lorry too fast all of us flew to the front and bang each other... its was very funny.

I finally quit my job liao. Now im jobless but very happy cause i can slack at home and do nothing for 2 weeks! yippeee.. been looking forward to this for very long already.

happy bday to ming!

yeah!! had a realli good time celebrating birthday for my dearest meimei... she just joined me in the 20s family yesterday! =) we had dinner at cafe cartel.. ordered seafood combo for 3 but i thought it was not very nice, would have rather eaten at fish and co.. their seafood platter is so much more worth it! Didnt get to try the other food, but i saw some people eating some really big serving piece of meat?? some ribs thing.... looks delicious though.. can try some other times. Then after that we went for ktv at suntec there... really missed ming's singing, really think that she can join the jue dui superstar already. haha...

today is the free movie day!! fantastic four is really really funny!! act its really entertaining, i liked the show! haha.. had lots of fun laughing with yanjun.. We had free pop corn too, but no one share with me... didnt wan to finish the whole thing myself.

Im extending my stay at work till next friday, cause there are many things to do in the office and the boss didnt want us to leave so early. but yanjun is leaving already cos she's gg hong kong for hol! such a lucky girl... i didnt even get to go malaysia... must find one weekend go malaysia shop and eat, at least.

I think im recovering quite fast from heart break. thanks to my lovely angel. I dunno whether its just for this period of time that im feeling better, or is it going to last for good. I cant predict wat's gg to happen in the future too. But all i know is im grateful for my angel's existence... =) thank you so much for coming into my life, at the right time...

Breathe Again

Have you wondered how it feels when its all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never know it where you're going when you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now i just close my eyes and say

I just wanna breath again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little cry a little live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little try a little more
I'll breathe again

Starting out is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck its a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Dont wanna live my life in vain

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn