Baby avril was born on 4 September 2011. She was induced, as I was already 40weeks and I couldn't wait to get her out of my tummy cause I was worrying about her well being when she was inside. The last one or two weeks before she was born, she was moving vigorously in my tummy most of the nights, I was so afraid that she would get herself entangled with the cord. Luckily, I have the world's best gynae to look after me. He loaned me a mini Doppler which I used many times a day to check on her heartbeat, especially towards the end of the pregnancy.

I was so eager to get her out of the tummy that I couldn't understand when my colleague told me, once she is out, u will feel like putting her back into the tummy. Now I understand.

Anyway, I didnt feel any pain at all throughout the whole labour, cause dr Phua arranged nicely for dr earnest to do the epidural as soon as he broke the water bag. The most painful thing during the labour was the needle poked on my left hand for the drips! Lol. So I waited from 9am till about 6pm for the dilation of the cervix to 10cm, and was ready to push. It felt like I needed to poo very badly when the contractions came. I thought it was going to come out easily as I really felt like I needed to push. But it wasn't easy at all. I had to push real hard in just one breath! And this went on for about 3 contractions then dr Phua decoded to help me with the vacuum. Baby was out the next push. I felt so relieved that I didn't have to push anymore. Hahaha.. That wasthe feeling. And tears welled up in my eyes as I heard the baby cried. Now whenever I think abt that moment I also feel like crying. I finally feel strongly for the word 'congratulations'. I didn't feel the need for others to congratulate me duorng my wedding, but this time ard, the word congratulations felt very meaningful to me. It's like my body has worked har for the past 10 months, I have suffered so much during he first 3 months, and I had worried so much throughout the pregnancy that when finally I got a baby, a normal baby, I felt 'yes..I Finally got what I have been waiting for, congratulate me!' Daryl was sp happy the first moment baby arrived, I have never seen him so happy before. I felt even more blessed than ever seeing the smile on his face. :)

One month of confinement is almost gone, I think I haven't slept for more than 3 hrs in a sleep at all. I'm so tired. And worrying continues... I'm worrying my baby isnt responding to me yet, worrying abt her when she cries. Sometimes I think I really have postnatal blues, I get upset easily n I cry often. Very tired now...

less than a month away...

im now 35 weeks. its getting more and more difficult to move around. and i feel like an elephant. even my principal says im gaining alot of weight. almost 60kg now, gained 13kg in total already. i feel so tired and unmotivated to work nowadays, just wanna slack.

i really hope i will be a good mum . :) and my daughter will be healthy, pretty and smart. lol.. so much expectations. :P

Lousy morning

I decided to take a cab down since I wasn't sure of where the school is. The cab didn't know where the sch is and didn't bother to tell me or find it n simply said he doesn't know. So I just asked him to drop me at clement mrt. It cost me 12 bucks just to get to clementi when I could have taken a bus and it would only have cost me less than a dollar. I was so overwhelmed by these two irritating things that I can't help it but cry. It was such a disguting morning. I'm so sianz. Think baby also crying inside alrd. :(

14th week

I'm actually much better now.. Though I still don't have much appetite, at least I won't feel like puking my meal out after eating. Occasionally I will feel that my mouth is bland and wanna throw up but I never did anymore. And I'm no longer relying on those anti vomiting medicine already! Finally I'm leading a close to normal life :) hehehe. But still I don't feel as perfect as when I wasn't pregnant lah. But at least I can do my work with more energy. Yippee.

Work is still as busy as ever.. Just can't wait for hols to come asap. I don't mean march hols.. It is not a hol anyway.. I've got camps and meetings and mid yr papers to set... it will be a perfect march holiday if I can clear these work. Oh well.

JJ concert was fantastic. It reminded me how much I used to listen to his songs when I was studying for my a levels.. My cd player will just repeat the entire album again and again n i never got sick of the songs.. Only love them more n more. The concert was really loud though, esp when Xiao Jing teng sang Wang fei. I hope my baby isn't hurt in anyway. And I was so surprised to see ming there too!

12th week

Things arent getting any better, else I wont be blogging away here early in the morning. Everyday i feel like im dragging my feet to work, cause i know that once my day starts, the nausea will come back and i wont have the appetite to eat, what's more the mood to work. I just feel like returning to the bed everyday as early as possible, even if that can happen i will also lie on the bed with great discomfort, just waiting to fall asleep to get rid of those lousy feelings. :( I am soooo sian of my life already, i wonder when will these pesky symptoms ever go away? :( feel like crying again. sighs.

Today is wednesday, still have 2 more LONG days to go before i can enjoy my weekend sleeping throughout. what kinda lousy weekend rite?

last weekend daryl and i booked a cruise to redang on 8apr! :) cant wait to feel great and enjoy the trip.

9th Week

It is really not easy. The nausea is getting worse as the medicine itself is unable to stop my vomitting. Sometimes i wonder how am i going to survive for the next 4 weeks. At the same time, i also hope that my nausea wont last beyond week 12. I havent been eating happily and the smell of cooked food makes me wanna puke even more. :( I have lost my appetitie and I am getting outbreaks on my face and back. It is sooo bad. what to do? all for you, little fetus. I hope you will be healthy and come to the world safely in september. that's all i ask for for repayment k?

7th week

It has been 2 weeks since school started. able to cope so far, but life was a little difficult in the first week due to my condition but it became better ever since i got the anti vomitting medicine from the doctor. Still have a long long way to go. Sometimes i wonder how i will be able to survive another 20 weeks of sch?! I have no march hols as it will be used for camps and setting of exam papers. omg.. its so scary to look forward. But i hope i can make it.

my classes are great so far. hopefully they will continue to be like that! :D Still trying to remember all the names.. its so hard for me!

Daryl and I got the new furnitures from ikea, and a new bed that is coming in a few days time from serta! The brand with all the sheepies. By then I would have 2 big sheep and 1 skinless one. So cute!!