2005 is coming to an end... it has really been a long year for me, especially in the middle of the year. After September time seems to fly very fast... This whole holiday i rotted so much that after i finally get to work 2 days in the clinic xuan is working at, I feel so drained... so tired. Waking up at 9 plus am has been my habit during the hols and the need to drag myself up at 6.30am in the morning is really a torture.. But for money.. hah... no problem la... spent so much money during the hols with little budget, now my bank is quite empty liao.

All the hard work put in for the last semester has finally been paid off, thank god for that and thank daryl for helping me so much.. A sotong couldn't have been able to make it alone. A motivation to work as hard next semester, jia you to all my friends!

Feeling lazier to move nowadays, going to swimming and running are like becoming a chore for me... oh no.... that's very bad. They are supposedly my hobbies... what a pig i've become :(

Sigh, i wanted to buy a pair of silver chain slippers that i liked so much from m)phosis... I first saw it in the bugis branch, and then the suntec one. Thinking that there is still lot of stocks available, I wanted to wait for a week or two until i get some money to buy and wear it for chinese new year. But then when i went to some of its other branches again, there seem to be no more... I asked the sales person to check for me whether there is still anymore in other outlets but there wasnt any left. how unfortunate... i could have own a pair if i hadn't hesitated to buy it. WHy??? :( But nvm lah, xuan bought me a nice pair of sandals from the same shop as christmas present too... how coincidental

bangkok trip

jus came back from bangkok yesterday! wow... it was a really great holiday, alot of shopping and visited many nice places... my favourite place is the safari world, its like 10 times better than singapore zoo.. watched a few performances there, all very nice :) and i get to feed a cub as well... the elephant show also very nice. the elephants are trained to play sports and also painting, veri cute. And the most exciting thing i did there was para sailing! yeah, i get to fly high in the air... damn shiok!! =) And i bought at least 14 t shirts from there cos they are veri cheap... one only cost ard 4 bucks. And their earrings are mostly one for 1 sing... hehe.. nice place for shopping!

holidays

exams are finally over... time to take a good rest, these few days i've been sleeping like a pig, can sleep from 11pm to 10am and still feel tired and sleepy. don't know why.. not many plans for this holiday, just a short one month break, going to bangkok for 5 days, and the rest of the hol is for mi to rot and recover from this crazy sem. hopefully this exam will help pull my cap up as well.

things to do this holiday
-improve tennis skills, i wan tennis racquet of my own
-fix puzzle... miss the 'take my own sweet time' times to fix puzzles
-go swimming...i've stopped swimming since last hoL!

westlife is back

finally! after so long, they finally have another album! i cannot stand the last album they had, cant appreciate all the songs, so in the end i didnt buy their previous cd. This time i dunno whether i should buy anot... still deciding... but the songs are nice!

SEP application is over... And i got a common pool place to Finland, Helsinki University of Technology! oh my god! cant believe that i actually have a chance to go!! Cause my cap isnt high enough to compete with others, luckily meiqing helped mi mail the sep in charge... and i got a place allocated to mI!! yipeee.... which means yr 2007 i wouldnt be in singapore to celebrate chinese new year and my birthday with my family... I just cant wait for this exciting 6 mths!! somemore i've got daryl and meiqing going with me =)

exams coming in a week's time, the lectures finally ended today. hai... so much to study, dun think i can even finish studying properly.

study hard....

subway day

today i only had one lecture in school, hence after that mi, daryl, meiqing and lishan decided to go holland v to eat subway!! hehe.... but....

we waited at the bus stop for nearly 20 mins before we had the chance to go up a bus cos the bus stop was so crowded. After we got up the bus, we didnt press the bell and alighted at arts forum there when the car was parked at raffle's hall. sigh... so we took about 30 minutes just to get to the car from science. by that time i was really sianz... but nvm... we got to holland v in the end! We ate our favourite subway, footlong cold cut trio!! it was damn nice lah. hehe... then after that we went to buy cakes for some fren's bday, in the end we were too tempted by nydc and sat down to eat mudpie! =) yum!

if i knew how, i will sure open a subway in nus loh... sure very good business! hehe... there is always this subway bus 95 coming into our school but there is no subway... why not replace munchie monkey with subway? haha.... or macs?

not much updates

sep is almost gone! this semester really pass quite fast, and everyone around me thinks so too. Mid term break is over too, and there are many upcoming tests as well. school is so busy and tiring, but at the same time, also good lah. Keep my mind occupied.

i think daryl's dad is a great great cook. He cooks really nice stuff... on saturday, he prepared a super yummy japanese meal for us. Got all the raw fish meat which tasted so fresh and sweet, and japanese noodles, sushi etcetc. Just like what you get to eat in a restuarant...!

a few days ago i went to this starlight movie at padang.. then i did a really xia suay thing. Hai!! So lose face loh. After the movie was over and as we were packing up, i was clearing the potato chips and other rubbish. Then i saw a guy holding a big black rubbish bag standing nearby and i walked towards him to throw the bag of rubbish in my hand. As i approached him, he seemed to be talking to other people and i was waiting for him to open the rubbish bag for me. I was abit irritated cos he was so slow, then when he finally opened the bag i threw my rubbish inside, he asked me, "you wanna throw ur rubbish?" I nodded my head and turned away. Then suddenly it dawned upon me that he wasnt a rubbish collector!! He was holding the bag he and his friends had. So it was like he was doing a favour for me to throw the rubbish away and i didn't even say thank you and walked away like he was the rubbish collector! Then i heard his frens said, "Put the bag there let others throw the rubbish lah.." arghhh... i didnt dare to turn back and faster zao... sian ahh... haha. he must be cursing away loh.

week 4 ends

Friday is our exercise day! tennis and badminton today, together with daryl, meiqing and steven. I'm sorry meiqing, if u see my face abit sian, i'm not sian abt u lah, of course i enjoy playing with u, no matter how beginner you are, cos i admit i'm not that good too. Its just that I feel sian if I dun get to move enough, cause when it comes to exercise, to mi its really sweat one... and when i dun, i feel lazy and upset loh. But it's not your fault, it's just my lousy attitude lah. And poor daryl has to take all those disgusting tantrums... i'm sorry!

There are many good food around daryl's neighbourhood... and i discovered that the duck/char siew noodle is very very nice! Whenever i'm hungry i will crave for the noodles. Yummy! And I finally learnt how to appreciate roasted chestnuts... Used to hate the smell of it, and now im loving it... And moon cake festival is finally here, again. I love mooncakes, especially if they are durian flavour, of course! durian is my love... mango is first runner-up.

Things are finally settling down. Guess my heart is more or less settled too. It was not easy taking this step... But since i've made that step, i should set my heart into it and don't waver anymore. Sometime it hurts when I look back, but I've got to learn to deal with it and treasure what i've now. To me, relationship is all about responsibility and commitment... once the honeymoon period is over, its the character of the person that you have to accept and love. I admit that i've been lousy at dealing with relationships, but I wan to grow up abit more and be better at it... And i'm really sorry to the one whom i've hurt in my process of growing up.

"Remember that the rope is happy now, and learning to be happier... and so the boy must do the same"

ahhH!!

damn it!! my printer is working so slowly!! im supposed to be going to school noW! arghhh cant stand it. i think it took 1 hour to print 28 pages. Gosh!!Lousy printer... wasting my time. =(

so many tutorials to do... cannot finish as usual. Miss my hsbc friends.. wanna meet up with them soon but when? nO time... and my friend's birthday coming soon, no money!! got to save some money liao.. keep spending and no money loH... sigh! Bought a new bag with meiqing... sam bag to bring to school.. ha, we look like twin sisters.

still waiting for the lousy printer... hurry uP!!!

school week 2 liao...

next week tutorials start, and alot of work are piling up already though its just the 2nd week. C++ lectures have been terrible so far. have to spend hours trying to understand lecture notes, and i have yet to try the tutorial. school kinda suck la.

today's meiqing's birthday... think by the time i finished typing i should say its yesterday already. Bought an oreo chocolate cake from prima deli for her, junyong steven and we girls all celebrated for her... then she told us about the peeping tom kena caught yesterday night at raffles hall. So scary yet i wish i was there to witness that incident cause she said alot alot of guys were running after him.. and alot of bad words and one of the guys even spit at him loh.

Been eating buffet and lots of nice food these days - my grandma's birthday, daryl's birthday and my mum's birthday also. And lots of cakes as well. Really gaining weight must try and control liao. Too much good food is not good for mi... stomach showing.. haha.

"Maybe my love will come back someday. Only heaven knows. And maybe our hearts will find a way. Only heaven knows. And all I can do is hope and pray... 'Cause heaven knows"

what's wrong with me...

I'm terribly confused with my own life, sometimes i feel that what i'm doing is right, sometimes everything feels so wrong, wondered what actually happened, why is my life like this? Well, to be specific.. its my love life... why can't i have a simple and blissful love life? Why do I have to go through all these? Sigh... Used to have a jian jian dan dan de ai... but ever since that break up, things get more and more complicated and sad. Since now that i have him back, why can't i be as happy as before? Why do i not feel the urge to be with him? Am i taking him for granted... or do i really don't feel as much as before? arghhh!!

"i don't blame u if u decide that im a bad girl. be happy, that's all i ask of you"

lucky star

once again my lucky stars are working! daryl got 5th for his bowling competition... 9 pin tap...9 strikes in a row, just 3 more to complete a perfect game. so wasted...

watched charlie and the choc factory, not veri nice lah... the island is nicer. But the choc inside the show is really yummy! haha...

" i never see you sad before, and when i see that you are sad, it really breaks my heart."

bowling or rolling the ball?

Finally get to bowl again, haha.. but i feel that im rolling the ball instead of bowling lor. scores are still around the same, never change lah.

School's starting tmr already. so so so fast.... the whole holiday has been spent at working and working... veri little time of really going out and have fun. Time really flies. So many things happened. people stepping in and out of my life. me getting emotionally drained sometimes. And physically not very well at this point of time too. Getting tired and school's starting liao... Not ready yet. not at all...

"i didn't mean to make u sad, why should i, when all i got from u was concern and great company, and most of all, love... "

sleepy

I've never slept for so long in my life! haha.. maybe i did la, when i was a baby. But it has been a long time since i slept for so many hours... slept from 2am to 11pm and then 1pm to 4pm... realli like pig lor. Wanted to go swimming cause i rebonding my hair tomr then cannot go swimming for a period of time after that already. AHhh losing so much of my tan after the cac camp... cant wait to get it back! Going to a chalet organised by my hsbc friends next weekend at sentosa!! cant wait!

my bro bought a new phone, same as zanlun's...k750i...so cool lor the cam damn zai can take so clear photos! my phone so cheap one.. haha.. abit jealous now but then nvm la i still love my phone.

die la.. onli left 2 weeks then school reoopens liao. This sem i only taking 5 modules, cause there is C++ im realli scared that i cannot cope lor. stupid declan better help me lor... declan is this pokey guy i know from my hsbc clique... he everytime pokes me and teases me, got girlfriend already still so playful and childish. haha... poh fang better do something abt it!!

"i really loved the rainbow we saw together... it was really beautiful... and its the fullest rainbow i've ever seen. thanks for being there for me, thanks for being with me"

shopping spreeee!!

finally get to shop all i want!! haha.. went out with melissa and meiqing today. Shop like crazy, all the three of us bought many many things at our shopping paradise... BUGIS! We had lots of fun trying on clothes, and getting 'mau dun' over whether to buy or not but in the end still bought everything that we wanted! so fun so fun.... i bought 4 skirts and 1 top lor. spent like one hundred over... but then i really nv get to buy anything for myself the whole hol, been too busy working~

bbQ at ecp with my colleagues was fun too. haha... at night my daddy sent me and 5 of my friends home! He just got his new lorry, then we all sat at the back... then there was this time my dad braked the lorry too fast all of us flew to the front and bang each other... its was very funny.

I finally quit my job liao. Now im jobless but very happy cause i can slack at home and do nothing for 2 weeks! yippeee.. been looking forward to this for very long already.

happy bday to ming!

yeah!! had a realli good time celebrating birthday for my dearest meimei... she just joined me in the 20s family yesterday! =) we had dinner at cafe cartel.. ordered seafood combo for 3 but i thought it was not very nice, would have rather eaten at fish and co.. their seafood platter is so much more worth it! Didnt get to try the other food, but i saw some people eating some really big serving piece of meat?? some ribs thing.... looks delicious though.. can try some other times. Then after that we went for ktv at suntec there... really missed ming's singing, really think that she can join the jue dui superstar already. haha...

today is the free movie day!! fantastic four is really really funny!! act its really entertaining, i liked the show! haha.. had lots of fun laughing with yanjun.. We had free pop corn too, but no one share with me... didnt wan to finish the whole thing myself.

Im extending my stay at work till next friday, cause there are many things to do in the office and the boss didnt want us to leave so early. but yanjun is leaving already cos she's gg hong kong for hol! such a lucky girl... i didnt even get to go malaysia... must find one weekend go malaysia shop and eat, at least.

I think im recovering quite fast from heart break. thanks to my lovely angel. I dunno whether its just for this period of time that im feeling better, or is it going to last for good. I cant predict wat's gg to happen in the future too. But all i know is im grateful for my angel's existence... =) thank you so much for coming into my life, at the right time...

Breathe Again

Have you wondered how it feels when its all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never know it where you're going when you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now i just close my eyes and say

I just wanna breath again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little cry a little live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little try a little more
I'll breathe again

Starting out is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck its a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Dont wanna live my life in vain

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

last 2nd week of work

Have been piaing OT since monday, worked a total of 11.5 hrs of OT so far already! But then really tiring and no life lor... more than 12 hrs in the office. Quite look forward to watching fantastic four with my colleagues. Kelly services is treating us next wednesday at PS after work... coolzz... oh ya.. and they gave all of us a notebook that has a big spongebob picture on the front page. haha... it was so cute, but it only reminded me of sad stuff.. so i giving it away....

Mood has been up and down. There are times that im happy and times when im not, but life continues, and im really glad that there is this person who really cared for me... Let me call the person my angel bah.. Never thought that my angel would give a damn to whatever i feel cos we have never been close before, or really been friends who talked alot b4... it was really a surprise to receive so much comfort, and im happy that there is this angel who is so promising to offer me lots of attention. When i asked him why he care so much for me, and he sent me a really sweet msg abt love and friendship.

one day love and friendship met. love asked friendship, " why do u exist when i already do?" friendship simply replied," to put a smile where you leave tears." :)

where does my life leads?

Returned from a camp with a black face. burnt face. sad face. lost face... i've lost him, and no matter how hard i tried to bring him back, i still lost him. maybe it wasnt meant to be... i know i have to let it go, i've to learn to live an independent life on my own. i promised myself, my mum and all my friends who love me to be a strong girl. i'll do it, i will... for their sake. Its really not easy, after being so dependent for almost a year, after spending almost everyday with someone who loves u so much. and now everything is gone... after all the promises that he made has gone into the drain, how m i supposed to carry on?

once he told me to share this nick with him.. it was a song from madagascar, and now... he is sharing a song with another girl.......

"Do away with the old state. A child is guided by wise parents. Suit yourself in your endeavours. Your livelihood is assured."

simple yet so admirable...

i was walking along bugis street, and an old couple was walking in front of me. They are very old, probably in their 70s already, and they were holding hands and swinging them like how young couples do. A feeling of admiration and jealousy came over me... I really admire them for being so loving after so many years. its simple, yet it is not (in another way). :)

dreading monday

sucks man... tomr is monday again, and the worst thing is that i've to be on my own tomr at work, cause yanjun is away for camp for this whole week. There are other frens there lah but then yanjun is like my companion during working time, sharing the same music as me and talking and laughing with me.

Had a rather good sunday today, watched "batman begins" with daryl... yest went swimming alone and actually swam 30laps! haha...didnt know how i achieved that, maybe i really felt bored and nothing to do so just kept swimming and swimming.

Abit sad to know that one of my friends from hsbc is quitting in like a weeks' time or two. Sigh, she has really been a great friend though the time that we know each other is very short. But i know she is a super nice girl. She was with me while i checked my results in the office that day, and it was really comforting to have her with me. And she even went to the temple the day before just to pray with me. How sweet right... think she is really a gift from the gods to me. Such a nice girl... and im going to miss seeing her after she leaves. Hopefully we will still keep in touch.

baddie mood

was in a total bad mood today... didnt feel like working or doing anything at all. felt almost dead sitting down there, and when it was finally time for lunch, it rained heavily... In the end me and yanjun had cup noodles at the office. Actually felt very touched, cause ningfeng kept asking us whether we wanted food from the hawker because they are taking a car out to da bao food... and we didnt want, but he kept asking and asking until we really rejected him until he bo bian. Such a nice person, most of the time, other ppl would just ask one or two times, and wouldnt care much abt what we eat... Actually a few guys there are quite sweet, such as our manager, lih pin.. he always buys little stuff for us, apples, pocky, vitagen... such a caring manager we've. :)

not really looking forward to camp... dont know why. Maybe cause im not really involved in the stations and i dont really understand why i'm going... sighz. This is the camp that i've been looking forward to joining since last year, cos i met my dear from there, and i really had a memorable time there. and in the end i've to feel this way. Because of work, couldnt attempt dry runs... felt super detatched from the ppl there. nothing to do for the camp. sian ahz....

a romantic song that i fell in love with...

it was originally sung by diana ross, and the american idols of season 4 sang it! :) here are the lyrics..

I wanna call the stars Down from the sky
I wanna live a day That never dies
I wanna change the world Only for you
All the impossible I wanna do
I wanna hold you close Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful Looking at you
In a world of lies You are the truth

And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero
I'll make you safe No matter where you are
And bring you Everything you ask for Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see Just what I was
Show you the loneliness And what it does
You walked into my life To stop my tears
Everything's easy now I have you here

And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero
I'll make you safe No matter where you are And bring you
Everything you ask for Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

eye for a guy

why why why!? why did howard lose to stupid wolfgang!? i've nothing to say, howard put in so much effort lor. sucks.... poor howard.

haha.. just felt very ji dong, need to relieve...

spongebob craze

Did quite alot of things this weekend... went to watch the phua chu kang musicAL, of course i didnt specially went to buy the ticket to watch. Haha... i personally don't really like pck one. but then after the show, i think i've better impression of him already. He can sing, quite well lah. The tickets were given to me by my mum, complimentary ones. Brought along daryl's brother with us to watch it. He quite enjoyed it lah. for me... it was ok only, but its nice to know how the musical was like. I think its quite a simple plot, but the music was not bad.. :)

Saw two pple wearing a spongebob squarepants t-shirt! wonder where they bought it from, cause mi and daryl want it! haha... its really very cute. Only managed to find those kids one from robinsons... havent seen it anywhere else. Hope that i'm able to find it soon.

i also went to watch the korean movie "my boyfriend is type B". Ha... its quite a funny show lah, not very romantic but overall its not too bad.

Finally got to ssee huiqian and carmel.. and the rest of the cac pple. i think im always the same quiet me, never really talked much. Or should i say, didn't talk at all to the whole group together. While daryl seems to have gotten along with the rest quite well... maybe cos of the dry runs for the camp. I didnt go for any because of work. Talking about work... they have been making ppl work lesser or half day these days. I really think that they have lousy planning skills, such that they have to treat their workers so badly in the end. make ppl go home early and earn less money when at first they didnt even allowed any leaves to be taken and told us to be prepared to work ot for the 3 mths. haiz.. thought that things have gotten better ever since i left hsbc last year.

summer by KENZO

yeah!! i finally got my perfume! its realli realli nice, kinda soapy powdery smell. fell in love with it when i bought the cleo mag a month ago where they gave a little bottle to sample, then went around searching for it, and the taka staff told me it will only be launched on the 3rd of june! And now i got it! :) so happy. daryl buy for me one, the 50ml one which cost 97 bucks! so expensive!! haha.. but he got it got me willingly.. hehe.. he was in a good mood because of his perfect results. i felt very happy for him too lah.

my one month

oh my god... its has been soooo long since i've last updated my blog, about a month already! Blame it on the job that im having now, i have been working from 8.30 am to 6pm and sometimes later from monday to friday. Yup, bedok hsbc has been a really great place to work in! i've enjoyed myself very much so far, although the work has been very sian and tiring. Guess its all the company that i have now. I've made new friends, funny ones, happy go lucky ones, can-click-well ones etc etc. :) im so glad to be part of them! Went gelare and shopping with them, and in the office, we even have angel and mortal game going on... my mortal is jonathan, and i think he knows who i m already. haha.. he has been a very nice mortal, buying me lots of snacks...cause im a nice angel! all of us call him bucky right from the start... in fact he introduced himself as bucky~ Oh ya, these few days very shuang also. cos our productivity at work has been great, we had 2 hrs lunch for 2 days and get to go home one hr earlier and we indicated our time sheets as the normal hrs. its so unlike the previous time while i was working for hsbc too. Whenever there are lesser things to do, we are told to go home and we arent paid for our normal working hrs. maybe cos we have a good manager now... his name is lih pin... and he is super gentlemanly! he opens the door for me and yanjun the other time, and even said "after you" and smiled.... perfect kinda gentleman.. :) everyone @ work likes him!

watched madagascar already! but i still think that the incredibles was nicer...think pIxar is really zai...

time really flies, today i got back my results liaoz... i know i was dreading it... so the whole of today i've been trembling and going toilet... sighs. i have never been so scared when receiving results before. i don't know what happened this time round. luckily i didnt do THAT badly, but then it wasnt good as well. i should say its just ok lor. still have to work much much harder before i can reach my cap of 4 so that i can have a better honour... haiz, i also dont know whether all the effort that im willing to put in can really improve my grades that much. I just think that i feel doomed in nus... i dislike all the people that im taking exam with.. they stress me out alot. :( when checking results today, yanjun and weiling were there to accompany me. haiz... b4 i even looked at my results, i was so stressed that i.... i always end up like that.. im so glad they were there... and i feel that weiling is a friend that is sent to me to brighten up my days working there... along with yanjun of course. they gave me alot of comfort as i looked at my results one by one... we used a paper to cover the screen and then slowly moved it down...

cac camp is at the end of the month. i tried calling freshies up but they all seemed uninterested... but justina agreed to join in the camp!! im so happy. i really miss her alot. Cant wait to see her again, this coming sunday...

i had one great weekend last week... on one saturday alone, i played basketball, badminton, swimming and went bowling. that was just perfect for me. i love to be kept active! after so many hours of being stationary during the weekdays while working. haiz... im missing out all the precamps becos of work also. And my in-charge is unwilling to grant me 4 days' leave... in the end i could only take 3 days, so i'll have to miss out one day of the camp lor. no work no money, got work less play. sighz... i wanna go holidays...:( surely no chance one... i wanna become tanner too... but i can only feel the sun on weekends, provided its not raining... how sad...

house of wax

tmr i'll be going back to hsbc to work for about 2 mths plus. dun know why i actually end up making the choice to go back, i remember that i used to dislike working there because the work is alot and the pay is so little. But then its quite hard to find temp jobs nowadays, plus im working for such a short period of time. This time it isnt at dhoby ghaut.. its at bedok! so far lor... but for money, no choice lah, just bear with it for 2 mths only.

yesterday i went to bowl again, but i don't understand why i cant bowl properly leh. all my scores went belot 100, was so disappointed and sian. guess its just not my day la... having mood swings yest too.

today i finally cleaned up my room! so neat now... but it was so tiring. i dun think its totally dust free now also, there are some areas left unwiped. but overall looks better liao. :)

Oh ya, i caught a super scary, gruesome and i think its wellmade movie... hehe... HOUse oF waX! its damn scary lor, i watched until i kept shaking. and some parts are quite moving too... i cried when the girl little finger was cut off and alot of blood came out when she was trying to signal some help. totally disgusting... and finally when her friend found her... it was such a relief and i was so happy. a group of 6 ppl, in the end only got 2 survivors. really good movie, should catch it.

final day

waited so long for this day to come, one more paper...! just blogging for fun and testing out whether my i've successfully changed the address.

long time no bowl

Finally get to bowl after so many weeks of non-stop mugging... yeah!! and not too bad lah, my scores are still around the same -- 95,133,135.. haha cant really remember... but it was very nice to have time to go bowling again. Still got one more living with maths paper to go!

daryl's brother got girlfren already... heh.. and i think she's quite pretty. Very courteous and smiley girl bah. Sama age as mi... hehe but i didn't get to talk to her yet lah. too paiseh. haha... But it feels quite shuang to have someone else not in daryl's family to join them in their family outings now. Cos only mi then i will feel abit too paiseh in a sense... But then the feeling is also abit different... i also don't know how to say. Maybe cos i feel that sometimes i may be a little not too polite when compared to her because im usually very shy to say thanks to his parents for paying for the games etc. And i hardly talk to them too...

actually so far, all my papers have been very bad. i really going to dread the day when the results are released, cos i know that i will sure do very badly, and i cannot even gaurentee myself that i will have a A- in anything because all the papers were difficult to mi. The feeling is different from last sem, when i still can feel some As that may appear on my result slip. This time, its totally different... sighs. I did work hard lor.... :(

american idol

only left two papers! cant really focus now.. haha! Oh man... yesterday's american idol was so shocking, thought scott will definitely be out already since simon say him until like that. And i think he is really quite bad, but he got into the top 3 group! I couldnt believe it lor, they must have made a mistake. And its quite a waste for constantine to be out, but i dun really like him so its ok... hehe.. i support the two girls!! But then i think vonzell also not much hope. But hopefully she can stay till top3 left. hopefully la....

better get back to study.. :P

in the middle of exams

two papers have passed!! but then i din do well for them, my physics paper was very bad!! But i'm happy that ctw is oveR... yippPeee...=)

yeah... i found all my primary school mates in friendster from a friend! So happy because i get to know how they are now, after losing contact for about 8years! So interesting to know where they are now and how they are doing. N im amazed at the photos of huimin and weiming! haha... they look so couplish~~ And some of my primary school friends know friends i know from my junior college, the world is just so tiny...

still got 4 more papers to go... i miss swimming terribly. Havent jumped into the pool for more than maybe 2 mths. i wanna swim, slack and playyYY...... im waiting...

nothing much to blog abt... mel!! im so jealous of u.. rem that we are going out on the 6th??

my birthday is over

yah my birthday is over, and it has been quite a while since i last blogged. my birthday was pretty fine, and i wanna thank my dear meis and friends for celebrating it for me without fail. So sweet of them, tho its already exam time. And the presents too! I loved them... got new bags, accessories, clothes etc =) hehe... choon studying in australia also sent presents to mi thru mail! how sweet. N not to forget my dearie who bought mi a nice new wallet, same brand as b4 (pierre cardin). hehe... actually it was my request for it, how thick skinned. =P

just 4 more days, then i'll be sitting for my first paper. I'm not well prepared, and i realli am trying my best to catch up. But somehow, i just feel stressed up and cannot really study to the max that i can everyday. i already never think of all those smarties in nus mugging everyday and nite, im just stressed by the fact that i'm slow, and incompetent. But im really too tired to think too much already. i will just do all that i can, and that's it. realli hope that this time the results wont be worse than last time........ hard to say

I dislike my physics tutor, he always doesnt reply my mails, only reply to some of them. Sigh.. think he is lazy. Whereas my statics tutor is still the best.. =) whenever i think of him i will smile. if only he can be my tutor for the rest of the modules that i will take.. *dreams* he is great, damn great~

pizzaHeart

i love pizza... hee... simply love it manz, everytime my dad says he wan to order pizza... i'll always be very happy. I just tried this pizza which has 2 in 1 flavours. One side is hawaiian, the other is curry chicken. Yummy! Love the garlic bread too.

Went to kelly services to find a part time job for the upcoming holidays.. quite excited, because i miss working and meeting new kind of pple... my first experience working in hsbc was great, exposed mi to lots of new things, and i realised that there are many different kind of pple around, bad ones especially... ppl backstabbing each other also lor. Actually i think i miss money flowing into my bank account more. haha... And this hol i promise myself that i won't spend too much money like last time already. Must try to save up!

Going to start studying for exams soon... Quite scared about everything but at the same time, i know i got to go thru it, and i really hope that god will help me through this tough exams period and allow mi to not be too stressed... recently just went to see a doctor because i felt sick, then the doc said i was too stressed! But i didnt really feel THAT much stress... or maybe i did... well then i was given this medicine which made mi so dizzy that i fell to sleep as soon as i took it and the next day i felt alright again.

Good luck to all my frens having exams now... esp mel and limin. hehe... jia you!

my theory of friends

why blogging about friends? there are some friends whom you can trust and some friends whose friendship are definitely not worth keeping... If you have many friends, you have many friends with different characters(duh), and if you befriend them, you should be able to accept their faults and enjoy your friendship with them... No one is perfect in this world, everyone has their faults.

I admit, that there are friends whom i have quarrelled with, and then we are friends again.. the "scar of that quarrel" (?? haha) may still be there, but as long as you are able to forgive and forget, the friendship will continue, and you will learn to treasure the friendship even more. One should never pretend to "forgive and forget" and then start to say bad things about the person behind his/her back. its just not right, i mean... do you want someone to complain about you without u knowing it?

haizz... why is friendship ever so complicated? Is that the reason why relationships are even more complicated? Why cant everything be more simple..?

Backstabbing friends is realli a serious crime for friendship.

intruder....

seems like there is a joker trying to be wuliao.... i've decided to remove mi tagboard. and hey joker, if u wan to make fun of mi... there are other methods! i would like to know who u are idiot.

mel and those who always post on mi tagboard..hehe.. if u have anything to say to mi can always talk on msn...

nowadays my parents are more weight conscious.. they kept walking on the treadmill! haha.... maybe cos its the weekends now then they are free to do these kind of things. But i'm very happy that they are making an effort to keep themselves a little healthier... (like mi!) hehe....

Yesterday i met an old friend from OBS, he was with his gf... he was a very nice guy, and i remmber him as a good pal while i was in obs, but then never keep in touch liao. Then i was like standing next to them, and i din know until he called mi... But it was quite weird, cos i dunno wat to say to him, plus he wit gf then even more awkward. so i just stoned for about 7 mrt stops?? haha...

I realli cant wait for school to end again.. actually its ard one more month plus then everything is over alreadi. But there are so many obstacles before i can be free. Really dread the oral defence coming up for ctw. haizz... and all the exams and tests... and of cos the results..(even worse).

life sucks

yah... kinda stressed and upset with my life. over school work, tests... alot of things been making mi sadder and sadder with myself. i feel stupid, useless n idiotic in nus.. shouldnt have chosen it in the first place, its not suitable for mi. definitely not. im not happy with my results, im not happy with the whole of nus. i can say that this is the worst part of my study life so far. and i really hate it to the max, to the core, watever. nus make mi hate studying, make me demoralized as a human being. my life has NO meaning in nus.. everyday i just study, worry for results, study hard but still the results are like a pile of shit. i realli feel like quitting.

its already march!

hmm... how time flies... all my mid terms are finally over. Goodness... luckily man... if not i will surely die. All the tests have been so hard, maths was terrible too. Hope that my score wouldnt be as bad as physics.

Just woke up from a terrible dream... dreamt that i was all alone and sparks of fire just started ard mi, and then the whole building which i was in was being burnt down... i already escaped but no matter where i run, fire kept starting to burn around me. Maybe is those recent bush fires that made me dreamt of that. Scary leh.... thought it was so real... when i woke up i was so relieved.....

yeah... my parents bot mi a new treadmill!! next time dun need to go downstairs to run anymore=) hehe.... its coming tonite.. very excited!

sighs....

Just want to complain that life is so unfair... have been rather down these few days, cause of the stupid physics test... to say the truth, i really studied for it, though i did not study THAT hard, but i feel that i've done enough and spent sufficient time to understand everything.... in the end, i only got 5/15. Such lousy marks.... think there is a mistake in my shading of answers also, cos i m supposed to got 6 instead. i got at least 3 careless mistakes, and for the effort that i've put in for the test, think i should deserve a decent 8 or 9 like the rest... why did i get so low? haiz... realli saddening as it is my fav subject somemore... and its realli demoralising... like im so stupid. =(

some thoughts

its been a while since i last blogged... valentine's day has come and gone, though i didn't celebrate it on the actual day with mi dear, i had a happy sunday watching constantine with him, and not forgetting munching on the delicious stuff crust pizza at ps. :) mi generous dear bot mi a real nice espirit watch, it has sort of pink crystals inside it? hehe... it suddenly dawned upon mi that i'm such a lucky girl who has someone to love me, though i will occasionally feel that he doesnt realli put in alot of effort to really care abt mi feelings. think i'm a bit too sensitive on my part... and maybe i'm the one who takes him for granted sometimes. watever it is... i'm happy to have someone who doesn't give up on mi because i always throw tantrums and crying at small things.. hah...

im the sort of person who likes to bring up things from the past... haha... i remember when i first saw daryl, the cannot make it to 21, 16-yr old little boy, i nv thought that he wud be mi dear... the very first time i went out with him alone, i realised that he so gentle n so kind.... and now... hahaha. why m i talking about him? heh... nothing better to do and taking a break from studying physics now. my one week hol break has come... but then i feel abit stressed out, cause i have a physics test this coming sat, and i know nothing much... and it covers 10 chaps from the physics text... a few hundred pages, not forgetting hw and stupid ctw too~

happy chinese new year!

yeah.... finally can collect hong bao once agaiN! haha.... no la, happy cause its holiday and can slack abit... but not so.. next week i've got 3 tests, And 1 critique assignment to hand in leh... very sian lor. This friday i also have physics lab from 9 to 12 am!! i wan to complain ah!! =(

yeah!! today went bowling again... my average today is about 120 like tt!! haha... so shuang. Actually today's game was very interesting, cause we played this "forty frames" game, where each frame, there'll be different bonuses or bad stuff... eg. the 9pin thingy where 9 pins down is counted as a strike, super sour grapes where 5 points will be deducted for any pins left on ur first throw, mulligen where u can choose whether you want to rethrow ur first throw... makes things more interesting! =)

wishing all my friends a happy new yr and collect lots of hongbao and happiness!

arghh my blog!

i dont know what happened to my silly blog, the picture was just gone and the words couldnt be seen.... i didnt do anything to it, how come like tat? sigh... hope after changing the colours, the words can be seen liao. must wait long long b4 i've time to download another new blog skin.

CNY is coming... but i think i'm very busy. Got assignments to hand in after new yr, and many many tests coming up!! alot of things, very little time to enjoy. Think during new year i will still have to do work. So sian.....

Hehe... my fave pineapple tarts are here! Love to eat pineapple tarts so much. really yummy, esp those which are softer and more butterish in taste.. haha.. how to describe leh? im just gonna eat lots of them..... ahhh.

nothing much to blog about, cos my life has been rather boring these days. just gg to sch n coming home... nothing new, nothing exciting... just wan to xuan yao that my bowling scores average was 113 the other time! (for 6 games). so happy, but dunno whether i can maintain it and go higher anot =P

some updates

haizz, my stupid retainers broke... i always never take good care of things. spoil already then come n complain. =( now got to wait for 2 weeks plus b4 i can get a new one, and it will cost me two hundred dollars! arghhh damn it.

these two days i've been very suay... i dropped my poor phone on a carpark ground, those hard hard with a lot of pokies one.... so now my phone has holes here and there. small but not beautiful anymore. so careless rite...

i bought a new pair of shoes for CNY! haha... i'm so happy cause its a pair of tennis shoes, though i dun play well but then i love the design, plus its the same design as daryl's. hehe... and can wear it to go out also. Should have chosen running shoes instead, but i couldnt find any nice designs so in the end bot the tennis one... its white and baby blue in colour. A little too sweetie pie for me, but daryl says the colour is nice. Don't know why i dun go for sweet looking clothes or accessories anymore.. haha.... old liao.

alot of work to do.... damn sianzzzz

my new blog skin!

hehehe... this blogskin is much greener... n more peaceful i guess. Time to change the colour cos getting quite sick of purple, haha.. not that i dun like purple lah.

haizz... work is piling already, next week tutorial starts. Sucks man... today i just had my first lesson of critical thinking and writing, luckily my teacher doesnt call names and pick people from the class to answer questions, anyone can just say out answers. And of course i'll be my usual self, sitting quietly in class trying to be invisible. i know i've got to learn to speak up and be braver, but it is just not my character to be able to do that... sigh, hate that module.

but im lucky though, cos i got meiqing to accompany me for all the tutorials, so i think im very blessed already....

school days

it has been one week since school reopened... but it felt like holiday for me still cause i still go bowling and play tennis and slack around before and after school. did i mention before that i've my own bowling ball n shoe already? hehe... i koped frm daryl's house n then we went to drill holes to fit my own finger... cool huh... though i'm still a lousy beginner. hehe.. but quite happy today cause i managed to spare a few that has corner pins left. heh... =) Yup, i'm going to try my best to become a better player, must make good use of the ball!

i also went to visit my cousin over this weekend... she had met with an accident, and she's only primary four. Haizz... very sad and heart pain when i look at her, cos its quite a bad accident and she has cuts and wounds all over her face n eyes and neck... sigh. poor thing...

wild wild wet

yeah... last week of my holiday, i've finally visited all the important places that i always wanted to go. Actually wild wild wet is quite small... very fast can finish all the rides there. I liked the one which has a steep slope and the ularlah ride. hehe.. mi and meiqing screamed very loud the first time we took the most exciting ride... so fuN!! haha... but it was really quite scary because the speed was quite high... And the water playground is not bad also. There is this big Yakult bottle which pours water and alot of ppl will gather below it to get the water... and there is this wave pool, called tsunami. Like sea like that lor... but the name like quite bad, cos of the tsunami disaster... Oh, and one sad news when we got there: there were alot of army guys around.. yuck, make the queues longer and they were really rowdy and irritating. Even saw one of our jc guy fren there, but he didnt see us.

Oh ya, one thing i want to complain about... is that the KFC at www suxx!!! They sell 2 zinger burgers then ran out of it. so lousy lor.... how can kfc dun have zinger burger one. And a fly flew into my nose after we finished our meal. Wah damn suay... i blew it out then it died on the tissue paper. So disgusting.

Left 2 more days onli.. then have to go back to school liao. Really cant bear to part with the holidays. realli realli.... haizzzzz

snowcity!

Went to snow city yesterday, actually thought that its quite big, but then there was only one big slide and a small playground for kids to play. But anyway it was very fun cos the slide was really cool... (and cold as well). The speed at which i slided down was really fast, then i fell off the float thingy twice and slide down using my butt. haha...The temperature inside was about -5 degree celcius, super cold and freezing. I could not even control my hands properly because they were very numb. Quite a good experience =)

ahh... i bought another bag again. Mel read this sure scold mi one... its the forth bag?? that i bought in this holiday already... haizzz... cannot help it la.. cos the bag looks real nice.. or should i say, i'm attracted to branded goods. Hai, cannot la, getting too materialistic liao. I kiv jj's vcd for so long liao.. should buy that first before anything else, in the end still buy other things... sigh....