Baby avril was born on 4 September 2011. She was induced, as I was already 40weeks and I couldn't wait to get her out of my tummy cause I was worrying about her well being when she was inside. The last one or two weeks before she was born, she was moving vigorously in my tummy most of the nights, I was so afraid that she would get herself entangled with the cord. Luckily, I have the world's best gynae to look after me. He loaned me a mini Doppler which I used many times a day to check on her heartbeat, especially towards the end of the pregnancy.

I was so eager to get her out of the tummy that I couldn't understand when my colleague told me, once she is out, u will feel like putting her back into the tummy. Now I understand.

Anyway, I didnt feel any pain at all throughout the whole labour, cause dr Phua arranged nicely for dr earnest to do the epidural as soon as he broke the water bag. The most painful thing during the labour was the needle poked on my left hand for the drips! Lol. So I waited from 9am till about 6pm for the dilation of the cervix to 10cm, and was ready to push. It felt like I needed to poo very badly when the contractions came. I thought it was going to come out easily as I really felt like I needed to push. But it wasn't easy at all. I had to push real hard in just one breath! And this went on for about 3 contractions then dr Phua decoded to help me with the vacuum. Baby was out the next push. I felt so relieved that I didn't have to push anymore. Hahaha.. That wasthe feeling. And tears welled up in my eyes as I heard the baby cried. Now whenever I think abt that moment I also feel like crying. I finally feel strongly for the word 'congratulations'. I didn't feel the need for others to congratulate me duorng my wedding, but this time ard, the word congratulations felt very meaningful to me. It's like my body has worked har for the past 10 months, I have suffered so much during he first 3 months, and I had worried so much throughout the pregnancy that when finally I got a baby, a normal baby, I felt 'yes..I Finally got what I have been waiting for, congratulate me!' Daryl was sp happy the first moment baby arrived, I have never seen him so happy before. I felt even more blessed than ever seeing the smile on his face. :)

One month of confinement is almost gone, I think I haven't slept for more than 3 hrs in a sleep at all. I'm so tired. And worrying continues... I'm worrying my baby isnt responding to me yet, worrying abt her when she cries. Sometimes I think I really have postnatal blues, I get upset easily n I cry often. Very tired now...