simple yet so admirable...

i was walking along bugis street, and an old couple was walking in front of me. They are very old, probably in their 70s already, and they were holding hands and swinging them like how young couples do. A feeling of admiration and jealousy came over me... I really admire them for being so loving after so many years. its simple, yet it is not (in another way). :)

dreading monday

sucks man... tomr is monday again, and the worst thing is that i've to be on my own tomr at work, cause yanjun is away for camp for this whole week. There are other frens there lah but then yanjun is like my companion during working time, sharing the same music as me and talking and laughing with me.

Had a rather good sunday today, watched "batman begins" with daryl... yest went swimming alone and actually swam 30laps! haha...didnt know how i achieved that, maybe i really felt bored and nothing to do so just kept swimming and swimming.

Abit sad to know that one of my friends from hsbc is quitting in like a weeks' time or two. Sigh, she has really been a great friend though the time that we know each other is very short. But i know she is a super nice girl. She was with me while i checked my results in the office that day, and it was really comforting to have her with me. And she even went to the temple the day before just to pray with me. How sweet right... think she is really a gift from the gods to me. Such a nice girl... and im going to miss seeing her after she leaves. Hopefully we will still keep in touch.

baddie mood

was in a total bad mood today... didnt feel like working or doing anything at all. felt almost dead sitting down there, and when it was finally time for lunch, it rained heavily... In the end me and yanjun had cup noodles at the office. Actually felt very touched, cause ningfeng kept asking us whether we wanted food from the hawker because they are taking a car out to da bao food... and we didnt want, but he kept asking and asking until we really rejected him until he bo bian. Such a nice person, most of the time, other ppl would just ask one or two times, and wouldnt care much abt what we eat... Actually a few guys there are quite sweet, such as our manager, lih pin.. he always buys little stuff for us, apples, pocky, vitagen... such a caring manager we've. :)

not really looking forward to camp... dont know why. Maybe cause im not really involved in the stations and i dont really understand why i'm going... sighz. This is the camp that i've been looking forward to joining since last year, cos i met my dear from there, and i really had a memorable time there. and in the end i've to feel this way. Because of work, couldnt attempt dry runs... felt super detatched from the ppl there. nothing to do for the camp. sian ahz....

a romantic song that i fell in love with...

it was originally sung by diana ross, and the american idols of season 4 sang it! :) here are the lyrics..

I wanna call the stars Down from the sky
I wanna live a day That never dies
I wanna change the world Only for you
All the impossible I wanna do
I wanna hold you close Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful Looking at you
In a world of lies You are the truth

And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero
I'll make you safe No matter where you are
And bring you Everything you ask for Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see Just what I was
Show you the loneliness And what it does
You walked into my life To stop my tears
Everything's easy now I have you here

And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero
I'll make you safe No matter where you are And bring you
Everything you ask for Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

eye for a guy

why why why!? why did howard lose to stupid wolfgang!? i've nothing to say, howard put in so much effort lor. sucks.... poor howard.

haha.. just felt very ji dong, need to relieve...

spongebob craze

Did quite alot of things this weekend... went to watch the phua chu kang musicAL, of course i didnt specially went to buy the ticket to watch. Haha... i personally don't really like pck one. but then after the show, i think i've better impression of him already. He can sing, quite well lah. The tickets were given to me by my mum, complimentary ones. Brought along daryl's brother with us to watch it. He quite enjoyed it lah. for me... it was ok only, but its nice to know how the musical was like. I think its quite a simple plot, but the music was not bad.. :)

Saw two pple wearing a spongebob squarepants t-shirt! wonder where they bought it from, cause mi and daryl want it! haha... its really very cute. Only managed to find those kids one from robinsons... havent seen it anywhere else. Hope that i'm able to find it soon.

i also went to watch the korean movie "my boyfriend is type B". Ha... its quite a funny show lah, not very romantic but overall its not too bad.

Finally got to ssee huiqian and carmel.. and the rest of the cac pple. i think im always the same quiet me, never really talked much. Or should i say, didn't talk at all to the whole group together. While daryl seems to have gotten along with the rest quite well... maybe cos of the dry runs for the camp. I didnt go for any because of work. Talking about work... they have been making ppl work lesser or half day these days. I really think that they have lousy planning skills, such that they have to treat their workers so badly in the end. make ppl go home early and earn less money when at first they didnt even allowed any leaves to be taken and told us to be prepared to work ot for the 3 mths. haiz.. thought that things have gotten better ever since i left hsbc last year.

summer by KENZO

yeah!! i finally got my perfume! its realli realli nice, kinda soapy powdery smell. fell in love with it when i bought the cleo mag a month ago where they gave a little bottle to sample, then went around searching for it, and the taka staff told me it will only be launched on the 3rd of june! And now i got it! :) so happy. daryl buy for me one, the 50ml one which cost 97 bucks! so expensive!! haha.. but he got it got me willingly.. hehe.. he was in a good mood because of his perfect results. i felt very happy for him too lah.

my one month

oh my god... its has been soooo long since i've last updated my blog, about a month already! Blame it on the job that im having now, i have been working from 8.30 am to 6pm and sometimes later from monday to friday. Yup, bedok hsbc has been a really great place to work in! i've enjoyed myself very much so far, although the work has been very sian and tiring. Guess its all the company that i have now. I've made new friends, funny ones, happy go lucky ones, can-click-well ones etc etc. :) im so glad to be part of them! Went gelare and shopping with them, and in the office, we even have angel and mortal game going on... my mortal is jonathan, and i think he knows who i m already. haha.. he has been a very nice mortal, buying me lots of snacks...cause im a nice angel! all of us call him bucky right from the start... in fact he introduced himself as bucky~ Oh ya, these few days very shuang also. cos our productivity at work has been great, we had 2 hrs lunch for 2 days and get to go home one hr earlier and we indicated our time sheets as the normal hrs. its so unlike the previous time while i was working for hsbc too. Whenever there are lesser things to do, we are told to go home and we arent paid for our normal working hrs. maybe cos we have a good manager now... his name is lih pin... and he is super gentlemanly! he opens the door for me and yanjun the other time, and even said "after you" and smiled.... perfect kinda gentleman.. :) everyone @ work likes him!

watched madagascar already! but i still think that the incredibles was nicer...think pIxar is really zai...

time really flies, today i got back my results liaoz... i know i was dreading it... so the whole of today i've been trembling and going toilet... sighs. i have never been so scared when receiving results before. i don't know what happened this time round. luckily i didnt do THAT badly, but then it wasnt good as well. i should say its just ok lor. still have to work much much harder before i can reach my cap of 4 so that i can have a better honour... haiz, i also dont know whether all the effort that im willing to put in can really improve my grades that much. I just think that i feel doomed in nus... i dislike all the people that im taking exam with.. they stress me out alot. :( when checking results today, yanjun and weiling were there to accompany me. haiz... b4 i even looked at my results, i was so stressed that i.... i always end up like that.. im so glad they were there... and i feel that weiling is a friend that is sent to me to brighten up my days working there... along with yanjun of course. they gave me alot of comfort as i looked at my results one by one... we used a paper to cover the screen and then slowly moved it down...

cac camp is at the end of the month. i tried calling freshies up but they all seemed uninterested... but justina agreed to join in the camp!! im so happy. i really miss her alot. Cant wait to see her again, this coming sunday...

i had one great weekend last week... on one saturday alone, i played basketball, badminton, swimming and went bowling. that was just perfect for me. i love to be kept active! after so many hours of being stationary during the weekdays while working. haiz... im missing out all the precamps becos of work also. And my in-charge is unwilling to grant me 4 days' leave... in the end i could only take 3 days, so i'll have to miss out one day of the camp lor. no work no money, got work less play. sighz... i wanna go holidays...:( surely no chance one... i wanna become tanner too... but i can only feel the sun on weekends, provided its not raining... how sad...

house of wax

tmr i'll be going back to hsbc to work for about 2 mths plus. dun know why i actually end up making the choice to go back, i remember that i used to dislike working there because the work is alot and the pay is so little. But then its quite hard to find temp jobs nowadays, plus im working for such a short period of time. This time it isnt at dhoby ghaut.. its at bedok! so far lor... but for money, no choice lah, just bear with it for 2 mths only.

yesterday i went to bowl again, but i don't understand why i cant bowl properly leh. all my scores went belot 100, was so disappointed and sian. guess its just not my day la... having mood swings yest too.

today i finally cleaned up my room! so neat now... but it was so tiring. i dun think its totally dust free now also, there are some areas left unwiped. but overall looks better liao. :)

Oh ya, i caught a super scary, gruesome and i think its wellmade movie... hehe... HOUse oF waX! its damn scary lor, i watched until i kept shaking. and some parts are quite moving too... i cried when the girl little finger was cut off and alot of blood came out when she was trying to signal some help. totally disgusting... and finally when her friend found her... it was such a relief and i was so happy. a group of 6 ppl, in the end only got 2 survivors. really good movie, should catch it.

final day

waited so long for this day to come, one more paper...! just blogging for fun and testing out whether my i've successfully changed the address.

long time no bowl

Finally get to bowl after so many weeks of non-stop mugging... yeah!! and not too bad lah, my scores are still around the same -- 95,133,135.. haha cant really remember... but it was very nice to have time to go bowling again. Still got one more living with maths paper to go!

daryl's brother got girlfren already... heh.. and i think she's quite pretty. Very courteous and smiley girl bah. Sama age as mi... hehe but i didn't get to talk to her yet lah. too paiseh. haha... But it feels quite shuang to have someone else not in daryl's family to join them in their family outings now. Cos only mi then i will feel abit too paiseh in a sense... But then the feeling is also abit different... i also don't know how to say. Maybe cos i feel that sometimes i may be a little not too polite when compared to her because im usually very shy to say thanks to his parents for paying for the games etc. And i hardly talk to them too...

actually so far, all my papers have been very bad. i really going to dread the day when the results are released, cos i know that i will sure do very badly, and i cannot even gaurentee myself that i will have a A- in anything because all the papers were difficult to mi. The feeling is different from last sem, when i still can feel some As that may appear on my result slip. This time, its totally different... sighs. I did work hard lor.... :(

american idol

only left two papers! cant really focus now.. haha! Oh man... yesterday's american idol was so shocking, thought scott will definitely be out already since simon say him until like that. And i think he is really quite bad, but he got into the top 3 group! I couldnt believe it lor, they must have made a mistake. And its quite a waste for constantine to be out, but i dun really like him so its ok... hehe.. i support the two girls!! But then i think vonzell also not much hope. But hopefully she can stay till top3 left. hopefully la....

better get back to study.. :P

in the middle of exams

two papers have passed!! but then i din do well for them, my physics paper was very bad!! But i'm happy that ctw is oveR... yippPeee...=)

yeah... i found all my primary school mates in friendster from a friend! So happy because i get to know how they are now, after losing contact for about 8years! So interesting to know where they are now and how they are doing. N im amazed at the photos of huimin and weiming! haha... they look so couplish~~ And some of my primary school friends know friends i know from my junior college, the world is just so tiny...

still got 4 more papers to go... i miss swimming terribly. Havent jumped into the pool for more than maybe 2 mths. i wanna swim, slack and playyYY...... im waiting...

nothing much to blog abt... mel!! im so jealous of u.. rem that we are going out on the 6th??

my birthday is over

yah my birthday is over, and it has been quite a while since i last blogged. my birthday was pretty fine, and i wanna thank my dear meis and friends for celebrating it for me without fail. So sweet of them, tho its already exam time. And the presents too! I loved them... got new bags, accessories, clothes etc =) hehe... choon studying in australia also sent presents to mi thru mail! how sweet. N not to forget my dearie who bought mi a nice new wallet, same brand as b4 (pierre cardin). hehe... actually it was my request for it, how thick skinned. =P

just 4 more days, then i'll be sitting for my first paper. I'm not well prepared, and i realli am trying my best to catch up. But somehow, i just feel stressed up and cannot really study to the max that i can everyday. i already never think of all those smarties in nus mugging everyday and nite, im just stressed by the fact that i'm slow, and incompetent. But im really too tired to think too much already. i will just do all that i can, and that's it. realli hope that this time the results wont be worse than last time........ hard to say

I dislike my physics tutor, he always doesnt reply my mails, only reply to some of them. Sigh.. think he is lazy. Whereas my statics tutor is still the best.. =) whenever i think of him i will smile. if only he can be my tutor for the rest of the modules that i will take.. *dreams* he is great, damn great~

pizzaHeart

i love pizza... hee... simply love it manz, everytime my dad says he wan to order pizza... i'll always be very happy. I just tried this pizza which has 2 in 1 flavours. One side is hawaiian, the other is curry chicken. Yummy! Love the garlic bread too.

Went to kelly services to find a part time job for the upcoming holidays.. quite excited, because i miss working and meeting new kind of pple... my first experience working in hsbc was great, exposed mi to lots of new things, and i realised that there are many different kind of pple around, bad ones especially... ppl backstabbing each other also lor. Actually i think i miss money flowing into my bank account more. haha... And this hol i promise myself that i won't spend too much money like last time already. Must try to save up!

Going to start studying for exams soon... Quite scared about everything but at the same time, i know i got to go thru it, and i really hope that god will help me through this tough exams period and allow mi to not be too stressed... recently just went to see a doctor because i felt sick, then the doc said i was too stressed! But i didnt really feel THAT much stress... or maybe i did... well then i was given this medicine which made mi so dizzy that i fell to sleep as soon as i took it and the next day i felt alright again.

Good luck to all my frens having exams now... esp mel and limin. hehe... jia you!

my theory of friends

why blogging about friends? there are some friends whom you can trust and some friends whose friendship are definitely not worth keeping... If you have many friends, you have many friends with different characters(duh), and if you befriend them, you should be able to accept their faults and enjoy your friendship with them... No one is perfect in this world, everyone has their faults.

I admit, that there are friends whom i have quarrelled with, and then we are friends again.. the "scar of that quarrel" (?? haha) may still be there, but as long as you are able to forgive and forget, the friendship will continue, and you will learn to treasure the friendship even more. One should never pretend to "forgive and forget" and then start to say bad things about the person behind his/her back. its just not right, i mean... do you want someone to complain about you without u knowing it?

haizz... why is friendship ever so complicated? Is that the reason why relationships are even more complicated? Why cant everything be more simple..?

Backstabbing friends is realli a serious crime for friendship.

intruder....

seems like there is a joker trying to be wuliao.... i've decided to remove mi tagboard. and hey joker, if u wan to make fun of mi... there are other methods! i would like to know who u are idiot.

mel and those who always post on mi tagboard..hehe.. if u have anything to say to mi can always talk on msn...

nowadays my parents are more weight conscious.. they kept walking on the treadmill! haha.... maybe cos its the weekends now then they are free to do these kind of things. But i'm very happy that they are making an effort to keep themselves a little healthier... (like mi!) hehe....

Yesterday i met an old friend from OBS, he was with his gf... he was a very nice guy, and i remmber him as a good pal while i was in obs, but then never keep in touch liao. Then i was like standing next to them, and i din know until he called mi... But it was quite weird, cos i dunno wat to say to him, plus he wit gf then even more awkward. so i just stoned for about 7 mrt stops?? haha...

I realli cant wait for school to end again.. actually its ard one more month plus then everything is over alreadi. But there are so many obstacles before i can be free. Really dread the oral defence coming up for ctw. haizz... and all the exams and tests... and of cos the results..(even worse).

life sucks

yah... kinda stressed and upset with my life. over school work, tests... alot of things been making mi sadder and sadder with myself. i feel stupid, useless n idiotic in nus.. shouldnt have chosen it in the first place, its not suitable for mi. definitely not. im not happy with my results, im not happy with the whole of nus. i can say that this is the worst part of my study life so far. and i really hate it to the max, to the core, watever. nus make mi hate studying, make me demoralized as a human being. my life has NO meaning in nus.. everyday i just study, worry for results, study hard but still the results are like a pile of shit. i realli feel like quitting.

its already march!

hmm... how time flies... all my mid terms are finally over. Goodness... luckily man... if not i will surely die. All the tests have been so hard, maths was terrible too. Hope that my score wouldnt be as bad as physics.

Just woke up from a terrible dream... dreamt that i was all alone and sparks of fire just started ard mi, and then the whole building which i was in was being burnt down... i already escaped but no matter where i run, fire kept starting to burn around me. Maybe is those recent bush fires that made me dreamt of that. Scary leh.... thought it was so real... when i woke up i was so relieved.....

yeah... my parents bot mi a new treadmill!! next time dun need to go downstairs to run anymore=) hehe.... its coming tonite.. very excited!

sighs....

Just want to complain that life is so unfair... have been rather down these few days, cause of the stupid physics test... to say the truth, i really studied for it, though i did not study THAT hard, but i feel that i've done enough and spent sufficient time to understand everything.... in the end, i only got 5/15. Such lousy marks.... think there is a mistake in my shading of answers also, cos i m supposed to got 6 instead. i got at least 3 careless mistakes, and for the effort that i've put in for the test, think i should deserve a decent 8 or 9 like the rest... why did i get so low? haiz... realli saddening as it is my fav subject somemore... and its realli demoralising... like im so stupid. =(