Our 6th 19 July

Is there such a thing as I miss my wedding? I really do.. i wish i can return back to the time when I walked into the ballroom with daryl, seeing all my friend and relatives there for me. enjoying the music i chose for to play during the wedding, and not forgetting counting all the blessings of ang pows! I really miss that day.

19th july has just passed, marking my 6 years with daryl. i wasnt expecting any gifts from him, every year its the same, we would just go for a dinner together to celebrate. This year, he bought a precious moment figurine for me without having me to "niam" at him to buy me something! :) so sweet. the figurine is actually a couple reading news together, and the name for it is "Here is the good news, I am by your side" And along with it was a card. Although there were only 4 words written by him in the card (which made me laugh), the words printed on the card itself made me teared. Thank you so much dear.

I feel so much stronger now. After being in anxiety from last night till today!! I had a lesson study, and about 5 teachers were watching my lesson. The thought of them being around was so scary!! And I was so worried about it the whole night before. My mood was the lousiest in the morning and then it is over! And i really feel that i have overcomed this fear of people watching my lesson already! (hopefully.... cause i still have 2 more observations to go for next week and the week after)

And i m really quite a perfectionist.. :( feel upset when people say negative things about my lesson, but there is always room for improvement, and I should learn to look at it positively and treat these as opportunities to improve further! hehe

Shall continue marking now... wonder how can ppl with family balance their lives... im so tired.

The last time I blogged was in March.. wow, the month difference is getting bigger and bigger. So many things happened between March till now. In summary..

April - my big day
May - yanjun's big day
June - mingwai's big day
Went to Korea in June
June - grandma passed away

I just cant wait for December holidays, when the June one has just passed only. omg...
In Dec, I must really enjoy myself!! I would have gone through soooo much in school by then. Lesson observations, lesson study, setting of papers, etc etc etc. Cant wait to rest.