ahhH!!

damn it!! my printer is working so slowly!! im supposed to be going to school noW! arghhh cant stand it. i think it took 1 hour to print 28 pages. Gosh!!Lousy printer... wasting my time. =(

so many tutorials to do... cannot finish as usual. Miss my hsbc friends.. wanna meet up with them soon but when? nO time... and my friend's birthday coming soon, no money!! got to save some money liao.. keep spending and no money loH... sigh! Bought a new bag with meiqing... sam bag to bring to school.. ha, we look like twin sisters.

still waiting for the lousy printer... hurry uP!!!

school week 2 liao...

next week tutorials start, and alot of work are piling up already though its just the 2nd week. C++ lectures have been terrible so far. have to spend hours trying to understand lecture notes, and i have yet to try the tutorial. school kinda suck la.

today's meiqing's birthday... think by the time i finished typing i should say its yesterday already. Bought an oreo chocolate cake from prima deli for her, junyong steven and we girls all celebrated for her... then she told us about the peeping tom kena caught yesterday night at raffles hall. So scary yet i wish i was there to witness that incident cause she said alot alot of guys were running after him.. and alot of bad words and one of the guys even spit at him loh.

Been eating buffet and lots of nice food these days - my grandma's birthday, daryl's birthday and my mum's birthday also. And lots of cakes as well. Really gaining weight must try and control liao. Too much good food is not good for mi... stomach showing.. haha.

"Maybe my love will come back someday. Only heaven knows. And maybe our hearts will find a way. Only heaven knows. And all I can do is hope and pray... 'Cause heaven knows"

what's wrong with me...

I'm terribly confused with my own life, sometimes i feel that what i'm doing is right, sometimes everything feels so wrong, wondered what actually happened, why is my life like this? Well, to be specific.. its my love life... why can't i have a simple and blissful love life? Why do I have to go through all these? Sigh... Used to have a jian jian dan dan de ai... but ever since that break up, things get more and more complicated and sad. Since now that i have him back, why can't i be as happy as before? Why do i not feel the urge to be with him? Am i taking him for granted... or do i really don't feel as much as before? arghhh!!

"i don't blame u if u decide that im a bad girl. be happy, that's all i ask of you"

lucky star

once again my lucky stars are working! daryl got 5th for his bowling competition... 9 pin tap...9 strikes in a row, just 3 more to complete a perfect game. so wasted...

watched charlie and the choc factory, not veri nice lah... the island is nicer. But the choc inside the show is really yummy! haha...

" i never see you sad before, and when i see that you are sad, it really breaks my heart."

bowling or rolling the ball?

Finally get to bowl again, haha.. but i feel that im rolling the ball instead of bowling lor. scores are still around the same, never change lah.

School's starting tmr already. so so so fast.... the whole holiday has been spent at working and working... veri little time of really going out and have fun. Time really flies. So many things happened. people stepping in and out of my life. me getting emotionally drained sometimes. And physically not very well at this point of time too. Getting tired and school's starting liao... Not ready yet. not at all...

"i didn't mean to make u sad, why should i, when all i got from u was concern and great company, and most of all, love... "

sleepy

I've never slept for so long in my life! haha.. maybe i did la, when i was a baby. But it has been a long time since i slept for so many hours... slept from 2am to 11pm and then 1pm to 4pm... realli like pig lor. Wanted to go swimming cause i rebonding my hair tomr then cannot go swimming for a period of time after that already. AHhh losing so much of my tan after the cac camp... cant wait to get it back! Going to a chalet organised by my hsbc friends next weekend at sentosa!! cant wait!

my bro bought a new phone, same as zanlun's...k750i...so cool lor the cam damn zai can take so clear photos! my phone so cheap one.. haha.. abit jealous now but then nvm la i still love my phone.

die la.. onli left 2 weeks then school reoopens liao. This sem i only taking 5 modules, cause there is C++ im realli scared that i cannot cope lor. stupid declan better help me lor... declan is this pokey guy i know from my hsbc clique... he everytime pokes me and teases me, got girlfriend already still so playful and childish. haha... poh fang better do something abt it!!

"i really loved the rainbow we saw together... it was really beautiful... and its the fullest rainbow i've ever seen. thanks for being there for me, thanks for being with me"

shopping spreeee!!

finally get to shop all i want!! haha.. went out with melissa and meiqing today. Shop like crazy, all the three of us bought many many things at our shopping paradise... BUGIS! We had lots of fun trying on clothes, and getting 'mau dun' over whether to buy or not but in the end still bought everything that we wanted! so fun so fun.... i bought 4 skirts and 1 top lor. spent like one hundred over... but then i really nv get to buy anything for myself the whole hol, been too busy working~

bbQ at ecp with my colleagues was fun too. haha... at night my daddy sent me and 5 of my friends home! He just got his new lorry, then we all sat at the back... then there was this time my dad braked the lorry too fast all of us flew to the front and bang each other... its was very funny.

I finally quit my job liao. Now im jobless but very happy cause i can slack at home and do nothing for 2 weeks! yippeee.. been looking forward to this for very long already.

happy bday to ming!

yeah!! had a realli good time celebrating birthday for my dearest meimei... she just joined me in the 20s family yesterday! =) we had dinner at cafe cartel.. ordered seafood combo for 3 but i thought it was not very nice, would have rather eaten at fish and co.. their seafood platter is so much more worth it! Didnt get to try the other food, but i saw some people eating some really big serving piece of meat?? some ribs thing.... looks delicious though.. can try some other times. Then after that we went for ktv at suntec there... really missed ming's singing, really think that she can join the jue dui superstar already. haha...

today is the free movie day!! fantastic four is really really funny!! act its really entertaining, i liked the show! haha.. had lots of fun laughing with yanjun.. We had free pop corn too, but no one share with me... didnt wan to finish the whole thing myself.

Im extending my stay at work till next friday, cause there are many things to do in the office and the boss didnt want us to leave so early. but yanjun is leaving already cos she's gg hong kong for hol! such a lucky girl... i didnt even get to go malaysia... must find one weekend go malaysia shop and eat, at least.

I think im recovering quite fast from heart break. thanks to my lovely angel. I dunno whether its just for this period of time that im feeling better, or is it going to last for good. I cant predict wat's gg to happen in the future too. But all i know is im grateful for my angel's existence... =) thank you so much for coming into my life, at the right time...

Breathe Again

Have you wondered how it feels when its all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew
Never know it where you're going when you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now i just close my eyes and say

I just wanna breath again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little cry a little live a little more
I just wanna face the day
Forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little try a little more
I'll breathe again

Starting out is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck its a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Dont wanna live my life in vain

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

last 2nd week of work

Have been piaing OT since monday, worked a total of 11.5 hrs of OT so far already! But then really tiring and no life lor... more than 12 hrs in the office. Quite look forward to watching fantastic four with my colleagues. Kelly services is treating us next wednesday at PS after work... coolzz... oh ya.. and they gave all of us a notebook that has a big spongebob picture on the front page. haha... it was so cute, but it only reminded me of sad stuff.. so i giving it away....

Mood has been up and down. There are times that im happy and times when im not, but life continues, and im really glad that there is this person who really cared for me... Let me call the person my angel bah.. Never thought that my angel would give a damn to whatever i feel cos we have never been close before, or really been friends who talked alot b4... it was really a surprise to receive so much comfort, and im happy that there is this angel who is so promising to offer me lots of attention. When i asked him why he care so much for me, and he sent me a really sweet msg abt love and friendship.

one day love and friendship met. love asked friendship, " why do u exist when i already do?" friendship simply replied," to put a smile where you leave tears." :)

where does my life leads?

Returned from a camp with a black face. burnt face. sad face. lost face... i've lost him, and no matter how hard i tried to bring him back, i still lost him. maybe it wasnt meant to be... i know i have to let it go, i've to learn to live an independent life on my own. i promised myself, my mum and all my friends who love me to be a strong girl. i'll do it, i will... for their sake. Its really not easy, after being so dependent for almost a year, after spending almost everyday with someone who loves u so much. and now everything is gone... after all the promises that he made has gone into the drain, how m i supposed to carry on?

once he told me to share this nick with him.. it was a song from madagascar, and now... he is sharing a song with another girl.......

"Do away with the old state. A child is guided by wise parents. Suit yourself in your endeavours. Your livelihood is assured."

simple yet so admirable...

i was walking along bugis street, and an old couple was walking in front of me. They are very old, probably in their 70s already, and they were holding hands and swinging them like how young couples do. A feeling of admiration and jealousy came over me... I really admire them for being so loving after so many years. its simple, yet it is not (in another way). :)

dreading monday

sucks man... tomr is monday again, and the worst thing is that i've to be on my own tomr at work, cause yanjun is away for camp for this whole week. There are other frens there lah but then yanjun is like my companion during working time, sharing the same music as me and talking and laughing with me.

Had a rather good sunday today, watched "batman begins" with daryl... yest went swimming alone and actually swam 30laps! haha...didnt know how i achieved that, maybe i really felt bored and nothing to do so just kept swimming and swimming.

Abit sad to know that one of my friends from hsbc is quitting in like a weeks' time or two. Sigh, she has really been a great friend though the time that we know each other is very short. But i know she is a super nice girl. She was with me while i checked my results in the office that day, and it was really comforting to have her with me. And she even went to the temple the day before just to pray with me. How sweet right... think she is really a gift from the gods to me. Such a nice girl... and im going to miss seeing her after she leaves. Hopefully we will still keep in touch.

baddie mood

was in a total bad mood today... didnt feel like working or doing anything at all. felt almost dead sitting down there, and when it was finally time for lunch, it rained heavily... In the end me and yanjun had cup noodles at the office. Actually felt very touched, cause ningfeng kept asking us whether we wanted food from the hawker because they are taking a car out to da bao food... and we didnt want, but he kept asking and asking until we really rejected him until he bo bian. Such a nice person, most of the time, other ppl would just ask one or two times, and wouldnt care much abt what we eat... Actually a few guys there are quite sweet, such as our manager, lih pin.. he always buys little stuff for us, apples, pocky, vitagen... such a caring manager we've. :)

not really looking forward to camp... dont know why. Maybe cause im not really involved in the stations and i dont really understand why i'm going... sighz. This is the camp that i've been looking forward to joining since last year, cos i met my dear from there, and i really had a memorable time there. and in the end i've to feel this way. Because of work, couldnt attempt dry runs... felt super detatched from the ppl there. nothing to do for the camp. sian ahz....

a romantic song that i fell in love with...

it was originally sung by diana ross, and the american idols of season 4 sang it! :) here are the lyrics..

I wanna call the stars Down from the sky
I wanna live a day That never dies
I wanna change the world Only for you
All the impossible I wanna do
I wanna hold you close Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful Looking at you
In a world of lies You are the truth

And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero
I'll make you safe No matter where you are
And bring you Everything you ask for Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see Just what I was
Show you the loneliness And what it does
You walked into my life To stop my tears
Everything's easy now I have you here

And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero
I'll make you safe No matter where you are And bring you
Everything you ask for Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

eye for a guy

why why why!? why did howard lose to stupid wolfgang!? i've nothing to say, howard put in so much effort lor. sucks.... poor howard.

haha.. just felt very ji dong, need to relieve...

spongebob craze

Did quite alot of things this weekend... went to watch the phua chu kang musicAL, of course i didnt specially went to buy the ticket to watch. Haha... i personally don't really like pck one. but then after the show, i think i've better impression of him already. He can sing, quite well lah. The tickets were given to me by my mum, complimentary ones. Brought along daryl's brother with us to watch it. He quite enjoyed it lah. for me... it was ok only, but its nice to know how the musical was like. I think its quite a simple plot, but the music was not bad.. :)

Saw two pple wearing a spongebob squarepants t-shirt! wonder where they bought it from, cause mi and daryl want it! haha... its really very cute. Only managed to find those kids one from robinsons... havent seen it anywhere else. Hope that i'm able to find it soon.

i also went to watch the korean movie "my boyfriend is type B". Ha... its quite a funny show lah, not very romantic but overall its not too bad.

Finally got to ssee huiqian and carmel.. and the rest of the cac pple. i think im always the same quiet me, never really talked much. Or should i say, didn't talk at all to the whole group together. While daryl seems to have gotten along with the rest quite well... maybe cos of the dry runs for the camp. I didnt go for any because of work. Talking about work... they have been making ppl work lesser or half day these days. I really think that they have lousy planning skills, such that they have to treat their workers so badly in the end. make ppl go home early and earn less money when at first they didnt even allowed any leaves to be taken and told us to be prepared to work ot for the 3 mths. haiz.. thought that things have gotten better ever since i left hsbc last year.

summer by KENZO

yeah!! i finally got my perfume! its realli realli nice, kinda soapy powdery smell. fell in love with it when i bought the cleo mag a month ago where they gave a little bottle to sample, then went around searching for it, and the taka staff told me it will only be launched on the 3rd of june! And now i got it! :) so happy. daryl buy for me one, the 50ml one which cost 97 bucks! so expensive!! haha.. but he got it got me willingly.. hehe.. he was in a good mood because of his perfect results. i felt very happy for him too lah.

my one month

oh my god... its has been soooo long since i've last updated my blog, about a month already! Blame it on the job that im having now, i have been working from 8.30 am to 6pm and sometimes later from monday to friday. Yup, bedok hsbc has been a really great place to work in! i've enjoyed myself very much so far, although the work has been very sian and tiring. Guess its all the company that i have now. I've made new friends, funny ones, happy go lucky ones, can-click-well ones etc etc. :) im so glad to be part of them! Went gelare and shopping with them, and in the office, we even have angel and mortal game going on... my mortal is jonathan, and i think he knows who i m already. haha.. he has been a very nice mortal, buying me lots of snacks...cause im a nice angel! all of us call him bucky right from the start... in fact he introduced himself as bucky~ Oh ya, these few days very shuang also. cos our productivity at work has been great, we had 2 hrs lunch for 2 days and get to go home one hr earlier and we indicated our time sheets as the normal hrs. its so unlike the previous time while i was working for hsbc too. Whenever there are lesser things to do, we are told to go home and we arent paid for our normal working hrs. maybe cos we have a good manager now... his name is lih pin... and he is super gentlemanly! he opens the door for me and yanjun the other time, and even said "after you" and smiled.... perfect kinda gentleman.. :) everyone @ work likes him!

watched madagascar already! but i still think that the incredibles was nicer...think pIxar is really zai...

time really flies, today i got back my results liaoz... i know i was dreading it... so the whole of today i've been trembling and going toilet... sighs. i have never been so scared when receiving results before. i don't know what happened this time round. luckily i didnt do THAT badly, but then it wasnt good as well. i should say its just ok lor. still have to work much much harder before i can reach my cap of 4 so that i can have a better honour... haiz, i also dont know whether all the effort that im willing to put in can really improve my grades that much. I just think that i feel doomed in nus... i dislike all the people that im taking exam with.. they stress me out alot. :( when checking results today, yanjun and weiling were there to accompany me. haiz... b4 i even looked at my results, i was so stressed that i.... i always end up like that.. im so glad they were there... and i feel that weiling is a friend that is sent to me to brighten up my days working there... along with yanjun of course. they gave me alot of comfort as i looked at my results one by one... we used a paper to cover the screen and then slowly moved it down...

cac camp is at the end of the month. i tried calling freshies up but they all seemed uninterested... but justina agreed to join in the camp!! im so happy. i really miss her alot. Cant wait to see her again, this coming sunday...

i had one great weekend last week... on one saturday alone, i played basketball, badminton, swimming and went bowling. that was just perfect for me. i love to be kept active! after so many hours of being stationary during the weekdays while working. haiz... im missing out all the precamps becos of work also. And my in-charge is unwilling to grant me 4 days' leave... in the end i could only take 3 days, so i'll have to miss out one day of the camp lor. no work no money, got work less play. sighz... i wanna go holidays...:( surely no chance one... i wanna become tanner too... but i can only feel the sun on weekends, provided its not raining... how sad...

house of wax

tmr i'll be going back to hsbc to work for about 2 mths plus. dun know why i actually end up making the choice to go back, i remember that i used to dislike working there because the work is alot and the pay is so little. But then its quite hard to find temp jobs nowadays, plus im working for such a short period of time. This time it isnt at dhoby ghaut.. its at bedok! so far lor... but for money, no choice lah, just bear with it for 2 mths only.

yesterday i went to bowl again, but i don't understand why i cant bowl properly leh. all my scores went belot 100, was so disappointed and sian. guess its just not my day la... having mood swings yest too.

today i finally cleaned up my room! so neat now... but it was so tiring. i dun think its totally dust free now also, there are some areas left unwiped. but overall looks better liao. :)

Oh ya, i caught a super scary, gruesome and i think its wellmade movie... hehe... HOUse oF waX! its damn scary lor, i watched until i kept shaking. and some parts are quite moving too... i cried when the girl little finger was cut off and alot of blood came out when she was trying to signal some help. totally disgusting... and finally when her friend found her... it was such a relief and i was so happy. a group of 6 ppl, in the end only got 2 survivors. really good movie, should catch it.