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Life hasnt been very good. Currently i'm busy with projects & mid term test.

Chinese new year was okay, most of the days were spent gambling. but still, many unlucky things happened to me la. So much that i dun really wanna talk about them or rem them anymore. I am still very upset about the shoe thing with daryl's bro n gf tho. but alr xiao qi after so long.

moe interview was okay, but i dont think i'm going to get what i want. actually the whole process was very upsetting. first they printed wrongly for the progamme that i applied, i was supposed to be under the PGDE and not BSc. Then they told me that I am selected for primary sch, then during interview they kept insisting that i should go for 1 year contract before nie. Sigh. Its all the way depressing. Why cant i just get what i want.

My golf is deterioriating. Sigh. Played quite okay with daryl and the next day when I played with his daddy, almost every ball was sweeping the grass. So upsetting.

6A reunion

Pearlie and i were contemplating whether to go or not... in the end we went! haha.. it was a very interesting session with my primary school friends!

We were the third to reach although we were already 20 mins late. Well ppl usually come late for such gatherings. There were a total of 18 ppl who turned up, including miss Tan! (our dear form teacher) It was so nice to see the faces again! Many of them changed, the person who changed most drastically was kaijian, followed by zeyi. It was really funny when yong huat and zeyi were walking together and didnt recognize each other until they reached the same destination n got a shock. :P At first it felt quite weird being ard ppl i havent seen for ages, but after awhile, the way they spoke and behaved reminded me of the good old days in primary sch. Dinner was not bad, there were alot of food... western food, chocolate fondue etc.

Will upload pics once i get them :)

Engin was first for IFG bowling! haha... luckily i didnt cause them to lose. I cant say that I played to my best.. wasnt very familiar with my new ball though i had practised alot before the competition.

IFG is not for mi.. :(

i'm so confused.. Wondering whether to continue for Masters or not. Sigh. This is so confusing and irritating. I'm scared tt im just wasting my time, might as well go work. Even if I decide to go for Masters, there are two major tests that i need to pass first also - GRE test and scholarship application and interview. I wouldnt want to spend any more money studying, I want to get a confirmed job, get some experience already, then it wld be easier for me to look for work next time... SiGh.

Chinese New yr is approaching and i havent bought my clothes too. So busy with so many things nowadays... Took up one more tuition student and now i've 5 students alr. SDP on the way to mid term presentation, FYP still left 1 month to complete the main research, stupid bowling competition next Sat. Urgh... im so busy and stressed out.

It's all daryl's fault la.. he went to join the IFG bowling then the captain was desperate for a female player as they lack one girl. Until the last day of submission of names, he still couldnt find so i volunteered lo. else i think the whole team cannot play ba. And i get myself into this mess.. it sux.. I went to get another new ball just for this competition cos my old ball is plastic one then daryl also say it cmi liao. But when i went there to buy a new ball, the proshop man told me that it would be no difference if i drill conventional way of holding the ball. So in the end he sorta made me drill the hole for ppl who play hook. Damn.. didnt know that it would be so hard to learn a new way of holding ball. I had a super hard time getting used to the ball and it really stressed me out to the max after buying it. Thought that I could play much better with my old ball. Now im still forcing myself to use the new ball loh, there are improvements la, im finally getting used to it alr, but i think not good enough cos i still cannot bowl like i used to. Really worried about malu-ing myself on Sat. OMG... :( *sobs*

tennis!

Tennis lesson is so much fun! I laughed alot and sweat alot. Trying to improve myself... :) Love sports so much, tennis, golf, bowling, my top 3 love nowadays. It takes my mind off the stressful fyp and the future... Only half a year left to find a job for myself before I graduate.

The tennis coach is humorous, and it is so much fun to be exercising with a group of ppl trying to learn tennis like me. And after the lesson there is the yummy yakun kaya stall at the safra. hehe..

School is starting next week. Once again, it does not really make a difference to me because hols also need to work on my 2 big projects - fyp n sdp. And when sch reopens, I only have one more module left to take. so exciting.. cos finally for the first n last time, i am taking a module with yanjun n pearlie! hehe... been 4 yrs in nus and we havent taken a single common mod tog. And the module sounds interesting too.. forensic science.

december is gone...

cant believe the whole of dec is already gone, 2008 is coming! omg, i haven't really touched my fyp this whole dec! after exams i was busy with preparing for fyp interim report, then taiwan trip till the 20th and then i fell sick n still not totally feeling well now yet. There goes my fyp..... im in trouble~ Dunno why nowadays feel lethargic easily, will feel like pukin and just wanna lie on the bed.

Will update abt my taiwan trip when i remember to bring my camera back from daryl's house.. haha. I will be going for liang jing ru's concert tonight!! EXCITING... hehee... (still playing away)

Watched a really cute movie.. Alvin n the chipmunks!! i wan a hula hoooop :P

my mummie's new vios is cuming! the car plate num is quite special.. 241. Like the canadian piazza :P just ordered it for lunch. Hungry..

broken fingers

my blogskin is so plain and simple, unlike others. Partly cause im lazy to change it to a nicer one, im not really an IT person hence i hate the troubles of changing all the settings and looking at the long list of programming language. simple.. that's quite me, i admit. how i wish life is simple. its not really wise to live simple in such a complicated world.

Weeks and weeks of studying kept my body stationary at the work table, eyes on the laptop and television. oh how much i miss sports. Went for a simple 5 hole golf game with daryl n his dadi last thurs and it was really an eye opener. This is my very first time playing such a game! Well, i was lousy at it of cuz, but still not too bad as a beginner! There was this par 3 hole which i managed to get my ball into the green with 2 strokes. But i didnt get par tho.. haha. My fingers are in a terrible state. they are really painful and i have a big blister on my thumb. gripped wrongly or something.

Feel really stressed abt fyp. :(

50yard

i hit the 50 yard sign board!! ahh finally did it. See how beginner i'm now at golf? haha..i was super happy when the ball hit the sign with a loud thud. :P Had 3 lessons so far, and i really learnt alot! its jus too bad that my shoulder power is not strong enough to hit like guys, daryl can really hit v far, like more than x2 me with the same club. lots of practice to do...

Facebook is really addictive.

deCholidaYs?

Don't know why I suddenly had the mood to blog in this early morning. Well its not really early now but i just woke up. Yeap, I have realised how pig i am nowadays, i wouldn't wake up until 9am in the morning. Usually during this exam period, I will wake up at 7am to study cuz i used to love studying in the morning when my brain is the freshest. But not anymore.. eversince i came back from Finland, im jus a pig.

Had 3 golf lessons so far, each lesson he taught me different things, and i tried to remember everything and used them when i swing the club. It is not easy, the swing last less than a second and everything that he taught me has to be done in that second. My hands kena blisters and my fingers hurt everytime.. i think i gripped the club too tight. Needs lots of practice..

I better get down to finishing my da term paper and study for exams, and after exams, its not really a december hol for me either*sobs*. One week after exams i've to hand in my fyp report which i have not started at all and then i'm off to taiwan. After that i'm bac to sdp and fyp during the rest of the dec hols. it is really a last hol but its not a hol at all other than the taiwan trip. :( miserablee

my first golf lesson!

First and most imptly, i wanna thank daryl's daddy for everything.. he was the one who initiated that i go learn golf and he bought everything for mi.. so sweet..

and so, I went for my first golf lesson today! It was tiring, stressful but very fun! My coach kept asking me if I felt it when i got the correct swing, but every swing felt almost the same leh... i didnt know when i was doing it correctly or wrongly until he told me, that was why it was so stressful. there were a few times i couldnt even hit the ball.. and my ball doesnt fly as far as gavyn's (daryl's bro who started lessons with me today as well). can go over the roof not bad liao. :P But oh well, its the first time..


me and my pink golf bag


and a pair of girlie pink gloves to go with..

yea!!

exams coming soon. project gonna due soon too.
I think we can never find any other prof as enthu as prof poh alr. We were doing our project in the IBM lab today and prof poh walked in and asked if anyone needed help! He is really nice.. some students even talked to him like he was a friend..

random thoughts

It's not that I don't wanna think! Its not that i didnt spend time thinking about it. I really tried very hard everytime, yet i go to u for help everytime still. Sigh. I think you are really disappointed with me by now. it started off with "u impress me!", and now its "yea, whatever". Sigh, my fyp is in a pathetic state. Jiu mIng aH. Stressed.

Stressed over the future too. wondering What AM i going to do after I grad...

rebecca, thank u for doing well!!!!! =)

haha, i want to be muscular woman.:P training very hard now hoping that one day i am able to do 1 man pull up. That's my aim~ yea...

my ipod spoil.. *sobs*

cylysce, i'm glad u are able to move on, and i am happy to be there for you. you thanked me for guiding you to be strong, so u have to be strong yea? *biG hug* u will find someone true to you, believe in it. frens forever~

love?

Sometimes I think a relationship can be strong, love can be strong, yet at times love can be so fragile. One incident may change a person, time may change a person's thinking. Unknowingly, a person can just lose the partner, whom he/she may once thought was forever, till the end of his/her lifetime. Is love really so fragile? can a relationship that is built over years simply be broken like that? I dont understand what's true love. i dont understand what is love anymore.

However, love for parents and for siblings, i know. I have no doubts about that.

Although i have no idea what happened, I hope you will be strong. Be happy that you've known his true colours before marriage. Learn from the past, be heartbroken and then grow stronger emotionally.

argHH

Feel so drained each time after the 9-12pm tuition on weekends. SIgh. The students are not motivated, and I cant seem to help much. The parent is heck care. They will be having their exams next week and yet they can go on a holiday on that weekend? The p3 child's english is already weaker than a p1's standard... tell me what to do.. ARGHhHhhh

Troubles aside, yesterday I went for a foot massage with daryl's family. oOooh.. it was damn shiok. :P 1 hour foot massage was greeat. It was itchy at first, and i wanted to laugh but nobody was laughing so i kept very quiet. Then it started to hurt. ha. but the feeling was great after that. My feet felt so shuang. muahahahaa...

Shopping is also a good way of destressing, especially when you get good deals like 15 dollars for a pair of shorts at pepperPlus. But i was so unlucky, the cashier gave me the shorts with the same design but longer and i didnt notice it until i got home. Sigh. Promotional items cannot be exchanged. :(

Wishing all babies born in october a very happy birthday! - weiling, yanjun, choonlei, bro, xiulin jie, joan!! :P

i wanna go back...

to Finland.

i miss the weather, the air, the school, the spring, the peacefulness...and of course my wonderful roomie.. i miss u morwenna~~

Now having the 1 week break for this semester. Would be feeling kinda relaxed if there is no fyp. sigh. though there is a midterm coming.. feeling abit stressed abt my student who's gonna take her exam soon. I really hope she'd do well, and i will continue to teach her next yr. her mum is nice to me, even bought me mooncakes!

blahblah

Sometimes i just feel very stressed. I think cause this sem's timetable is empty. And the more that I am not really doing things, the more stressed I get. I guess its the feeling like I should be busy, but I am not. But anyway, midterm is coming and project will be more xiong as time passes. fyp.. ArGHHHHhhh:(

Regret cutting my hair again. Everyone who saw me in my newest short hair gave me lousy comments. Well, I wanted to cut it into a nicer shape, but it turned out bad. Everyone told me my previous hairstyle is nicer, and i truly think so too. hai.. wat can i do other than wait for it to grow long again..

Photos of Me, Myself and I... zi lian kuang.. :P

The "Ru Hua" photo!! Scary rite! so UGLY

before haircut

after haircut

Ratatouille

Remy, the rat from Ratatouille
he is much braver than me
he thinks positively
he is confident
he is willing to step out of his comfort zone to pursue his dreams
he is able to persuade others to realise that his dream is realistic
he is not afraid of what his dad and what other rats think of him
and most importantly
he knows what he wants

Ratatouille the movie is cute. though i still find the older works of Pixar better... like finding nemo n the incredibles. :)

thanks

eyebrows!

I went for eyebrow embroidery (xiu mei) 2 days ago... It was a really terrifying experience!

First, I went there cause 'xin xue lai cao'... my cousin was telling me about it and my heart itchy so she recommended me a place and brought me there. So my parents and my cousin went to amk hub there together.

The girl started to pluck off my eyebrows and after she was done, I thought that the shape was not bad! But it wasn't finished yet, because i came here to do the embriodery, not just plucking. And so the girl drew eyebrows for me to see if i like it or not. But the process was long and tedious, and tiring.

too thick on one side.

unbalanced. one up one down... etc.

she drew and redrew for so many times, and then she kept plucking my brows to make it balance. In the end, when she erased off everything, i almost had no brows anymore. I was so terrified and so worried that she cannot get the right shape and balanced brows and my mum was nagging non-stop... Felt terrible and upset, have to pay so much ($250) and yet not being able to enjoy the process. Worse still, walk out eyebrowless.

after what seemed like 10 years, another girl finally got it right. And then she started the real process of embroidery. It was painful. Quite... but I think I got quite a high threshold of pain (since i can deal with removing 4 teeth at one go when i wanted to wear braces last time).

Didn't feel confident that my brows look nice at all after that. Cos I think it looks really TATOOed. And super dark. And my bro laughed at me non stop... yanjun found it weird too. But now then i realised what eyebrow embroidery is: the dark disgusting brows on the skin are starting to shed, and the remaining brows looks not too bad after all! stupid me.. didnt even know they will shed off, thought it will look so damn dark for a long time. Ha... give comments when u see me! --end of story :P

Me with short hair and my naughty but adorable tuition girl whom i really love.

*before the 'eyebrow operation'*

She didnt do well this time round for her exams. scared that im not a good teacher, i hope i am. if she can do well by the end of the yr, then i really know what i wanna be in 1 year's time.. need some assurance that i can teach.

Beautiful fireworks on 18th August

The night view of Marina Bay.

I was there for the FIREWORKS! Of course, the actual thing is much more colorful and exciting than these photos... The music and the fireworks "worked together" and made it really amazing. The different ways the fireworks danced in the sky and even appeared from the water was really cool. i cant describe much, its just a "i hope it never ends" thing!



this is my most favourite photo. i don't like red colour but this was really pretty.

201

Today! I acheived something really GREAT!!! Haha... i got a super high score (to me) for bowling today! It is such a superb acheivement, but yet I fear that it is just once... I didn't know how I managed to get these scores also. I was soooo happy that i needed to take a photo of it since it doesnt happen often. (but i really hope it does in future.. heheheh) No open frames, and I would have nearly strike all for a 9pin tap competition!

Yet i still feel a bit down inside me.. a little stressed, a little of skin problem bothering me, feeling unconfident of myself for my final year project. I will be meeting my supervisor for the first time tomr, and hope that it goes well and i know what to do after that. And his opinion of me.. sigh, after all 15% of the marks consistute of my working attitude aka what he thinks of me. So stressful and so bothered. The sad thing is that I think he has no impression of me at all, even though I took his module before and contacted him during that time too. Plus, I am his mentee too... but i never talked much to him. Stressed...............

New haircut!!

Finally! I changed my hairstyle! I've been having looooong hair since Sec 3? yea.. about 7 years already, and I finally decided that it's time to change a new look. Hee.. Now my shoulder length hair only requires a little bit of shampoo and conditioner, and less than 30 seconds to comb! Haha. My damaged hair since half a yr ago has also been got rid of... Hai one thing that i regret is I never take a photo of that bunch of hair that was being chopped off--> could have posted it here. The barber tied my long hair together and cut it off at one go, and the whole bunch was on the floor. Could have used it as a broom or something hahaha. Regret that i never take it home for fun. :P

Watched a great movie -- jay chou's Secret. Nice twist and surprisingly wonderful plot. its a must-watch! really.

School's starting on monday... sobzz... doubt whether i have the energy to STUDY, after sooooo long.

bored.........

been slacking nowadays. waiting for school to start... wish i'm doing something more productive but this is really the very last holiday to nua!! Argh. Im really not looking forward to the hectic nus life again... sometimes i wish i can just rewind back to the days in finland where my main concern is "what should i cook today for lunch?" Sometimes when i'm too bored i'll just walk to the big supermarket and take my time to choose the ingredients for my food. The wide choices of cheese, pasta and ready marinated meat is so amazing as compared to ntuc. aww.. how i miss finland.

Just had a tuition session with my pri 1 kid. enjoying it more n more, cuz she is more willing to listen to me now that she is closer to me.

Suffered nose bleed after taking the medicine, so the doc advised me to take it on alternate days instead. now better alr...